Unbelief.
Your voice turned me utterly insane,
believing your suggestions
thinking there is no God.
For you betrayed my Good Life,
pushing me into that bottomless pit,
into fiery Hell for years on end.
Flying right through my reality,
your miserable voice dividing
myself against myself,
your taunts attacking faithful self,
hopelessness cutting me up,
your lies barring access to true Life!
No faith feeding my starving soul,
instead doubt, confusion and terror,
false evidence locking my hopes away,
devoid from true self or any good thing,
torturing me in those dark dungeons,
you only ever set out to murder me!
My dear brother as you said it started when you agreed with your gut feeling and not with Scripture any more. Scripture says that all who place their faith in Jesus will be saved. When you did all was fine, when you stopped doing it it got from bad to worse.
The only thing you need to do is call on the name of the Lord and ask Him to give you faith to believe in Him. When i did that i managed to have faith for just 10-20 seconds but cultivating it by have lots of short moments of faith in which i grew to having faith 24/7.
It might take awhile before you dare to have faith and learn to ignore your gut feeling about this. By the way your gut feelings are in the hands of the lie and do not speak true to you on this account, possible more. The best way to find truth is by the fruit it bears. Faith in Jesus bears good fruits of love, kindness, gentleness, joy, thankfulness, long suffering and self control. Exercise those in your life as much as you can. Do more you heed such good life the more it will be present in you. Doubt and unbelief harvest you misery and fear. That is because such does not come from God when it is in the lie but from the devil. Doubting lies and not believing them is how they should be used not doubting the Truth of God's love for you that only brings misery.
i hope you will learn to heed Scripture instead of lies that hurt and kill you in your good life.
Peace.
An invitation to The Chosen.
God's Love will not take or will
you to conform to rules or demand
which imprison, enslave, burn or kill you.
God's Love will not pervert what's Good
The Lord loves truthfully Wise and Good.
True Love was, is and always will be Good!
In God's Love you are free to be right!
In His love everything is good proper and kind.
He loves all who love good and true to rule!
His Love is caring, providing, and sharing.
His Love always enjoys and protects good life.
His love rules even when bad life has being in us!
Hear Jesus call - 'Come join up with us all!
Leave whatever ties you down and be free
loving good life with all God's own to be.'
To the rest in your heart God's asks
how long will you tarry in the darkness?
Please leave such bad existence within.
For life must not, no never should, or would, or could,
be forceful, rude, prideful, arrogant, selfish, lustful
or otherwise be untrue to God's loving truth.
Neither should life be hurting or ill,
hungry, oppressed, despised, hated
or otherwise have existence in wrong.
Please hand your Bad Life over to Jesus
Humbly ask for His Good Life back in return
and go love God, self and neighbour with Joy.
The Church knows that Jesus is coming soon
All bad life will be our shameful past then,
so please leave your bad life while you can!
Love.