I just believe God speaks to us through His word. Not in coincidences such as schizophrenia and psychosis.
2 Timothy ch 1:7 God didn't give us a spirit of fear, but of Power, Love and a Sound Mind.
That's right, but while men slept, His enemy sowed darnel amongst the wheat.
We have been given power to tread on snakes and scorpions, authority over the enemy in Jesus' name and for thousands of years, someone having a spiritual experience of life would seek counsel from more experienced priests. Nowadays however, Christians are defacto brainwashed to believe that spirituality is a mental disorder, and accessing expert spiritual guidance is difficult because it is sparse.
"My sheep listen to my voice, I know them and they follow me".
"Beware the false teachers that come to you in sheeps clothing. Inwardly they are ravenous wolves".
"My people go into exile for lack of knowledge. Their honorable men are famished, and their multitude is parched with thirst. Therefore hell has opened it's mouth and widened it's throat and Jerusalem's splendor, her multitude, her din of revelry and the jubilant within her, descend into it".
"Blessed are you, Simon Peter, for you have believed what The Father has shown you. Thou art the rock, upon which I will build my church, and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it".
If you will hear His voice today, do not harden your heart, but draw near to hear Him and learn of the way to salvation.
"I am the way, the truth and the life" .. further: "Nobody comes to The Father but by me".
"You diligently study the scriptures thinking that life is found in them, but the scriptures testify of me, yet you refuse to come to me that you may have life".
Brother dabro, I do believe that The Lord is pleading with you to repent and to follow Him. Be reassured that you are not alone!