I don't know why things are not working out for me. I know I'm suppose to not worry when an OCD thought comes to mind but they're becoming so hard to ignore lately. I dot know what to do:
1.) today I was coming back to my apartment and I saw someone that I think I knew. I didn't feel like talking to that person so I was hoping that she would t. Notice me. But then thought cameo to my mind that I would trade in my salvation for her not to notice me. Well she did t and I made into my apartment. And since I was carrying my laptop with me somehow the thought changed to: if I used my laptop in any way from that point on then that "bargain" will be valid. I went ahead and used it convincing. Yself that the thought didn't apply. But I'm becoming more and more worried about it.
2.) the other incident happened in the morning while I was still in bed. I was frustrated with the things I had to do including going to the groceries. It got so frustratIng to the point that The thought of me trading away my salvation to forego going to the groceries occurred in my mind. I wished it didn't happen. But now I'm afraid to go to the groceries at all for fear that Gods going to hold me to it.
Is any of this real? I'm going crazy.
Hermit
1.) today I was coming back to my apartment and I saw someone that I think I knew. I didn't feel like talking to that person so I was hoping that she would t. Notice me. But then thought cameo to my mind that I would trade in my salvation for her not to notice me. Well she did t and I made into my apartment. And since I was carrying my laptop with me somehow the thought changed to: if I used my laptop in any way from that point on then that "bargain" will be valid. I went ahead and used it convincing. Yself that the thought didn't apply. But I'm becoming more and more worried about it.
2.) the other incident happened in the morning while I was still in bed. I was frustrated with the things I had to do including going to the groceries. It got so frustratIng to the point that The thought of me trading away my salvation to forego going to the groceries occurred in my mind. I wished it didn't happen. But now I'm afraid to go to the groceries at all for fear that Gods going to hold me to it.
Is any of this real? I'm going crazy.
Hermit