Sometimes, I turn on the boiler to have hot water. And then, I close it but sometimes I forget if I close it or not.
I decided to brush my teeth and I started wondering if I turned off the boiler or not. I was thinking to check but ocd stopped me.
ocd: do not check if the boiler is turned off. you may have made a promise not to check.
I calmed myself down and I was thinking to check later when ocd would calm down. I knew everything were thoughts without my will.
While brushing my teeth, I was thinking that I will need to open the water to wash my mouth. If there is a chance that I left the boiler on, hot water will come out. If I turned off the boiler, it will be cold cause I remember using all the hot water hours ago, when I took a bath. ocd was like
ocd: go check to see if the boiler is turned on or not!
ocd2: do not go to check to see if the boiler is turned on or not cause you may have made a promise to God.
ocd1: go do it! if you do not check the boiler, you will understand when you turn on the water and maybe that will count as a mockery to God. like avoiding doing a certain action but doing it in another way.
I calmed my self by saying that maybe I will check it later.
after brushing my teeth, I turned on the water and I figured that the water was cold, so that meant that the boiler was turned off.
ocd started giving me worries
ocd: what have you done? why? why you did not go check the boiler? even if ocd was not letting you. because you figured that the boiler was off by feeling the water. it is like doing the action without doing it. no checking the boiler, due to ocd, but checking the water. maybe that counts like mockery! maybe you mocked God.
I decided to brush my teeth and I started wondering if I turned off the boiler or not. I was thinking to check but ocd stopped me.
ocd: do not check if the boiler is turned off. you may have made a promise not to check.
I calmed myself down and I was thinking to check later when ocd would calm down. I knew everything were thoughts without my will.
While brushing my teeth, I was thinking that I will need to open the water to wash my mouth. If there is a chance that I left the boiler on, hot water will come out. If I turned off the boiler, it will be cold cause I remember using all the hot water hours ago, when I took a bath. ocd was like
ocd: go check to see if the boiler is turned on or not!
ocd2: do not go to check to see if the boiler is turned on or not cause you may have made a promise to God.
ocd1: go do it! if you do not check the boiler, you will understand when you turn on the water and maybe that will count as a mockery to God. like avoiding doing a certain action but doing it in another way.
I calmed my self by saying that maybe I will check it later.
after brushing my teeth, I turned on the water and I figured that the water was cold, so that meant that the boiler was turned off.
ocd started giving me worries
ocd: what have you done? why? why you did not go check the boiler? even if ocd was not letting you. because you figured that the boiler was off by feeling the water. it is like doing the action without doing it. no checking the boiler, due to ocd, but checking the water. maybe that counts like mockery! maybe you mocked God.
