Is it true that God never leaves us that the only distance we ever feel is really by our choice??
I need to get back out there in my life. Get back to work Ive been looking but truthfully not hard enough (I think) because I fear getting back out there & loosing him through all the chaos of the world. I left my job months ago due to family situations I needed to tend to. I was on an even road at the time & actually had a better job lined up but I had a nervous breakdown with all that happened & actually gave up & gave in. Those who know me here have seen the struggle within myself I have been trying to come out of these past months.
An update on that I am really doing so much better (inside) & thats where it all starts right? The most important. People could look at my life right now & see that Im unemployed & have bills that need to be paid & could say Im not doing better.. but Ive defined my own value over these past years by my job & as long as I was making money I felt worthy of being a good person... then God was taking me through a long lesson that I needed to be secure in myself without the material things. This past month I have made the days count. Learning that well since I dont have a job I could do something else with my time until I do. I still feel guilty though.. Im looking for jobs ... but I am so afraid to get back out there .. & have the world interfere with my relationship with God yet at the same time Im excited to get back to work & I start back at College in Sept.
My relationship with God has surely come to a whole different level where I am learning to confide in him on anything. Sometimes though it feels a little unreal to be so calm & not be worried about anything. Is this normal???
Also please pray that I find a good job that I will enjoy & wont consume my entire life nor my spiritual life?
Thanks in advance
I need to get back out there in my life. Get back to work Ive been looking but truthfully not hard enough (I think) because I fear getting back out there & loosing him through all the chaos of the world. I left my job months ago due to family situations I needed to tend to. I was on an even road at the time & actually had a better job lined up but I had a nervous breakdown with all that happened & actually gave up & gave in. Those who know me here have seen the struggle within myself I have been trying to come out of these past months.
An update on that I am really doing so much better (inside) & thats where it all starts right? The most important. People could look at my life right now & see that Im unemployed & have bills that need to be paid & could say Im not doing better.. but Ive defined my own value over these past years by my job & as long as I was making money I felt worthy of being a good person... then God was taking me through a long lesson that I needed to be secure in myself without the material things. This past month I have made the days count. Learning that well since I dont have a job I could do something else with my time until I do. I still feel guilty though.. Im looking for jobs ... but I am so afraid to get back out there .. & have the world interfere with my relationship with God yet at the same time Im excited to get back to work & I start back at College in Sept.
My relationship with God has surely come to a whole different level where I am learning to confide in him on anything. Sometimes though it feels a little unreal to be so calm & not be worried about anything. Is this normal???
Also please pray that I find a good job that I will enjoy & wont consume my entire life nor my spiritual life?
Thanks in advance