I am christian young lady, i was prophesied in Feb 2019 that I have a healing gift and I persued my journey of being a faithful christain on waiting on the Lord for every part of my life, in June I was raped and I cried out to God as I didn't understand why it happned to me and during that time I met a guy whom at first I anted to use him as a distraction and he suddenly became o amazing and loving and he possed 9/10 everything I have asked God for andI have never felt love the way I did with him or never been loved that way, we have been goin on with this relationship for full 3 months now. One day I had to host two eldely women in my house that my mother asked me to host who cme to the city I live in and they were to come and preach the word of God as they were sent by God, one night as we were praying , one of them prophesied that the man I am with is not my husband , God is asking that I leave him, there is man that God has prepared for me, at first I got all emotional and thinking how do i dump a guy who didnt do anything and i actually dumped him and he didn't accept it and I was also very weak and inlove and went back and we have been dating ever since but I can't get this out of my mind, right now am totally stressed, the boyvrend has further proposed marriage which I said I will think about it, he treats me so well and I am not sure if I want anything better than him, I have developed stress and I can't even tell him why am stressed, in terms of the fact that what those ladies said is still lingering in my mind and I didnt tell him that they said there is some else God has for me as I thought that will hurt him. One night I remembered that I was on holiday and another lady prophesied to me that you will met a man that you may think he is the one and he will not be, you will be hurt a bit and afer that you will meet your husband. am not sure if this is it, am so strained and stressed, my life is on standstill and I don't even know what to ask God anymore, what to pray and I feel that I am not listening to God or defying his word . Please help, I sometimes say should I wait for the moment when I was told he will hurt me or what, already am hurting by going through this. Every little argument we have I hope it will lead to brake up. Am a mess