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MysticAngelxx
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Hi guys,
Well things have been really downhill for me...
To begin with I have social anxiety so I'm always lonely and don't have any friends at all because of that. It's so bad that I get terrified and freeze up whenever someone talks to me in a store. I'm 20 years old now and have never had a boyfriend, experiences, life or really any friends. I let the fear destroy everything I could've had and done and been, like everyone else my age. Just a pathetic waste of life I'm extremely depressed now and I just can't live with it anymore The only connection I've had to anyone has been with this guy online and he just told me that he liked another girl which was devastating I mean I know nothing could happen with me being this pathetic way in real life but it makes me want to kill myself The one person I had any connection with likes another girl that's so much better than I'll ever be What's the point now? I'll never have anyone. Just cursed to be alone and afraid forever while everyone else can have amazing things I could only DREAM of It kills me to hear people talk about relationships they've had, things they've done, things they're going to do and knowing I never had anything People say "just be patient" but I can't wait anymore! I don't know why God made me like this..it's like he hates me and wants me to suffer. I wouldn't even wish this on my worst enemy so how can I believe God loves me?? Nothing even matters anymore
Well things have been really downhill for me...
To begin with I have social anxiety so I'm always lonely and don't have any friends at all because of that. It's so bad that I get terrified and freeze up whenever someone talks to me in a store. I'm 20 years old now and have never had a boyfriend, experiences, life or really any friends. I let the fear destroy everything I could've had and done and been, like everyone else my age. Just a pathetic waste of life I'm extremely depressed now and I just can't live with it anymore The only connection I've had to anyone has been with this guy online and he just told me that he liked another girl which was devastating I mean I know nothing could happen with me being this pathetic way in real life but it makes me want to kill myself The one person I had any connection with likes another girl that's so much better than I'll ever be What's the point now? I'll never have anyone. Just cursed to be alone and afraid forever while everyone else can have amazing things I could only DREAM of It kills me to hear people talk about relationships they've had, things they've done, things they're going to do and knowing I never had anything People say "just be patient" but I can't wait anymore! I don't know why God made me like this..it's like he hates me and wants me to suffer. I wouldn't even wish this on my worst enemy so how can I believe God loves me?? Nothing even matters anymore