I had rejected jesus earlier this summer saying "what i need jesus for?" And then a little later on the solar eclipse happened. Someone told me christianity is based off of the sun. The eclipse happened aug. 21, my birthday is aug 23. Then i started putting two and two together where it said jesus died and arose on the third day. Aug 23 is the third day after aug 21. Then my name means birth of jesus but spelled backwards it has the word satan in it. I am worried that the solar eclipse was God trying to kill me because i rejected jesus out of ignorance. I still sometimes get confused about the whole story of jesus. I was checked into the psychward for my birthday and they injected me with something. Then they took a picture of my money with this device and then with the same device they pricked my hand and then my fingernail went all dead looking. They injected my left arm and then they injected me again and then the male nurse said "we are all entangled". The nurse had asked me what my religion was and i tried to escape because i was scared that they were trying to give me the mark of the beast. Then when i was released and went home i went to sleep one night and heard a man moaning in my ear like he was in agony and torment. It sounded like death was all around me. Sometimes i wonder if this is a parallel world and that i am now in end times for rejecting jesus earlier this year because after that my life flipped upside down. I lost touch with myself and ever since the eclipse its like the sun heats me up really bad now because earlier this year it felt like the sun was burning me up. Its hard for me to laugh and enjoy life now because i feel i have broken Gods rules. I had an out of body experience of this snake wrapping itself around me and i know it was evil cause after that i felt myself come out of my body again but this time i was cold. All of this started becausr i felt i was selfish and vain decided to change my ways and accept jesus and get closer to God and its like everything went the complete opposite. There is definitely something not right, and its not fair because i tried to be good and live for jesus but everything went the opposite. Its like something wants me to feel that i wasnt born to be good and that this force is mad that I dont want to go over to the dark side.