- Sep 20, 2021
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- United States
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- Non-Denom
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- Single
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- US-Libertarian
Yeah I said it I'm done with God. I've tried to do things his way but its clear that I will never had a real a relationship with him. I cannot see past my pain and frankly deep down I cannot reconcile the idea that God would every want me. I will never understand what God sees in me and I can't for the life of me understand why he or anyone can love a lying hypocritical arrogant whiny fool like me but I cannot accept a loving God.
Don't get me wrong I believe with all my heart that christ is the only true lord and savior of mankind and that he really did die for our sins and I respect him for it but I think his sacrifice was in vain.
Why go through all that pain and suffering for someone as worthless as me knowing I will never accept you ?
Why would you bother with it I'm toxic a walking bottle of poison constantly ruining everything and everyone around me.
I deserve to die and suffer for the wages of my sins and if I cannot die now then I will wait. My life is meaningless and I will never amount to anything. No I will take my punishment even if I must wait a thousand days or more there is no forgiveness for me no hope no salvation but that doesn't have to the case for anyone else.
The rest of the people here have bright futures and actually have a place at Gods table and that's great and good for you but there is no place for me outside a dark cell left to rot and suffer the full weight of my actions. And for the record I in no way blame or am angry at God for the way I'am it is my fault I'm like this and mine alone.
If you want my advice, follow God build a real relationship with him and your live will be blessed unlike me you have a chance of redemption. I may be young but I'm too prideful stubborn and always the victim to take God on his offer but you don't have too.
Its been fun but I will be going I'm deleting this account and going for good I will never able to a relationship with God he is literally the king of kings and I'm a filthy rag meant to be burned to dust that is how it should be and that is how it is.
Don't get me wrong I believe with all my heart that christ is the only true lord and savior of mankind and that he really did die for our sins and I respect him for it but I think his sacrifice was in vain.
Why go through all that pain and suffering for someone as worthless as me knowing I will never accept you ?
Why would you bother with it I'm toxic a walking bottle of poison constantly ruining everything and everyone around me.
I deserve to die and suffer for the wages of my sins and if I cannot die now then I will wait. My life is meaningless and I will never amount to anything. No I will take my punishment even if I must wait a thousand days or more there is no forgiveness for me no hope no salvation but that doesn't have to the case for anyone else.
The rest of the people here have bright futures and actually have a place at Gods table and that's great and good for you but there is no place for me outside a dark cell left to rot and suffer the full weight of my actions. And for the record I in no way blame or am angry at God for the way I'am it is my fault I'm like this and mine alone.
If you want my advice, follow God build a real relationship with him and your live will be blessed unlike me you have a chance of redemption. I may be young but I'm too prideful stubborn and always the victim to take God on his offer but you don't have too.
Its been fun but I will be going I'm deleting this account and going for good I will never able to a relationship with God he is literally the king of kings and I'm a filthy rag meant to be burned to dust that is how it should be and that is how it is.
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