- Jun 28, 2017
- 193
- 328
- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
I don't understand God, it's as if he condemns me, I read his word and I get condemned, I'm tired. I'm in highschool God expects so much out of me and oh how I would love to do what he expects! But it's like he doesn't want me. I'm tired of everyone here saying God loves me, I'm tired of everyone saying he won't leave me. He's been planning to leave me all along, even if I wanted to get close to him he would try to set up something so that I wouldn't be apart of his kingdom. He knows everything about me. I'm a bad person but I cannot change my heart Only he can. But I know he was planning this all along he was planning on turning against me. I wish I was one of his chosen, so that no matter what I would know the Lord will always be with me. I feel so evil. He's so good like Jesus is so good and I'm so evil. I'm so scared I'm going to be punished because of what Jesus did for me and I cease to stop sinning. Please I don't know what to do anymore jesus is so good. I deserve hell but I'm praying that he'll have his mercy on me, woe to me I'm so lazy and careless. I wish Jesus chose me to be his.