Many things have happened to me in the past few months that I cannot logically explain.
3 months ago, I felt like I had to talk to someone that I know and give them a message that I didn't understand, I had to tell them a bible verse and I was a staunch atheist at the time. Despite the fact that this person was not ill, they died without warning 4 days ago. It wasn't a coincidence to me, shortly before this happened, I asked if there was a God, that I could be given a sign and guided. I did not view the death occuring as a bad sign in particular.
I feel like I have moments where I truly believe and feel guided. I spend some days with large amounts of clarity regarding the word of God or the nature of God.
But then on some days, I may spend the day steeped in doubt or I feel so abandoned by God despite nothing bad happening, that I start to question my previously held beliefs and worry that a god may not exist, that I am just being delusional. I worry that anything short of Jesus appearing in front of me may leave me with doubt.
Any ideas on what I should do?
What happened to you in order to for you to become firm in your faith?
3 months ago, I felt like I had to talk to someone that I know and give them a message that I didn't understand, I had to tell them a bible verse and I was a staunch atheist at the time. Despite the fact that this person was not ill, they died without warning 4 days ago. It wasn't a coincidence to me, shortly before this happened, I asked if there was a God, that I could be given a sign and guided. I did not view the death occuring as a bad sign in particular.
I feel like I have moments where I truly believe and feel guided. I spend some days with large amounts of clarity regarding the word of God or the nature of God.
But then on some days, I may spend the day steeped in doubt or I feel so abandoned by God despite nothing bad happening, that I start to question my previously held beliefs and worry that a god may not exist, that I am just being delusional. I worry that anything short of Jesus appearing in front of me may leave me with doubt.
Any ideas on what I should do?
What happened to you in order to for you to become firm in your faith?