Hi friends. I am new to this forum, i had some problems with intrusive thoughts, and thanks to people here i can now say that thanks to you friends and God i am getting rid of those. I also have to say, that for first time in my life, i really feel good connection with God. I've never been devoted Christian in the past, i am 27 years old, i believed in God but never really found myself for Him. Those intrusive thoughts that i have due to my OCD led me here, which i belive was God's plan for me to turn to Him 
Now, i want to tell a story that popped into my mind recently. This happened really long ago 4-5 years ago or even maybe more. I was still a kid in a way back then. Again, i was never truly religious person, i believed in God, but never really paid attention to oaths, vows and so on, believing it was man made tools.
There was a secret that i had promised someone to keep. The secret was something personal, it was nothing bad, it was just something that i knew about someone, knew that was personal to him and didn't want to share it with someone else. Now friends of mine was suspecting about this thing and knew i was close to the person i knew this thing about.
So one they one of my so called "friends" conforted me about if i knew about this personal thing, that again had nothing to do with those people. I wanted to keep his secret private so i told them i dont. So he said something like "Do you swear". I dont really remember what happened but i think i said yes. I knew if i said no, i dont want to swear, for them it would if i confirm their suspictions. So in order to protect this person, i may have said Yes i swear. But in my mind, i never accepted that swear, i knew God knew this was the only way they will let go and i will protect the person by not revealing his secret. I think what they did was wrong and they had no right to make me swear, so in my mind the swear was not valid. Also, back than i wasn't that religious and in my mind swearing was a tool for them to find out something that
doesn't concern them so i felt its ok to not tell them the truth. And it passed and i forgot about it because i knew i did the right thing by protecting the person, i knew God would understand. Now, maybe 5 years later, and the fact i am still suffering from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, i am trying to make steps to turn to God again and this thing popped out of nowhere? Do you think i did wrong back then? Should have i tell the truth of refuse to swear- which for those people would be as if i told them what they want to know. The secret i am talking about is nothing bad, its something personal that i dont think they have right to know? I didn't even ask God for forgivness back then because in my mind that wasn't valid because they were using this as tool for getting information which was wrong. Now i years later i feel i may have done wrong so i ask God for forgivness. Do you think that i should now contact those people, years later, and tell them i lied back then? I am certain they have long forgotten years ago, and also i dont want to bring back old things because they will reflect on the person that i was keeping secret about.
I will give you an example of what happened, because some may be confused about my post.
Lets say you have friends who's last name is Dumb (this is just example). You know his name is Dumb but you know if other find out about it they may make fun of him. So bunch of "friends" of yours suspect you know his real name because you are close to this person and ask you- "Is his last name really Dumb?", you ofcourse answer "No, his last name is Daniel (the name he prefers to use)". They say "Really, can you swear?". Now if i say "No, i can't", and since they know i am close to that person, in their heads it will signal that he really is named "Dumb" and will keep harrassing him for it. So i may have said "I swear", i really dont remember it was long ago, but even if i did, in my mind i was thinking "This is not valid, because they are using something Holly like making me swear for wrong purposes", so even if i said yes in my heart i didn't accept that swear. But somehow now, as i started to suffer from mental issues like OCD, it just popped out in my mind as if i did something wrong, and i wonder shall i reach to those people if i can find them and tell them "Do you remember about that person, yes his last name really was Dumb". I feel deep inside that would be wrong thing to do. What do you think friends?
I just want to point out, i wasn't really religious back then, so in my mind Oaths, Vows and other tools had no weight. For me those were just tools to trick someone into telling what others want to hear.
Now, i want to tell a story that popped into my mind recently. This happened really long ago 4-5 years ago or even maybe more. I was still a kid in a way back then. Again, i was never truly religious person, i believed in God, but never really paid attention to oaths, vows and so on, believing it was man made tools.
There was a secret that i had promised someone to keep. The secret was something personal, it was nothing bad, it was just something that i knew about someone, knew that was personal to him and didn't want to share it with someone else. Now friends of mine was suspecting about this thing and knew i was close to the person i knew this thing about.
So one they one of my so called "friends" conforted me about if i knew about this personal thing, that again had nothing to do with those people. I wanted to keep his secret private so i told them i dont. So he said something like "Do you swear". I dont really remember what happened but i think i said yes. I knew if i said no, i dont want to swear, for them it would if i confirm their suspictions. So in order to protect this person, i may have said Yes i swear. But in my mind, i never accepted that swear, i knew God knew this was the only way they will let go and i will protect the person by not revealing his secret. I think what they did was wrong and they had no right to make me swear, so in my mind the swear was not valid. Also, back than i wasn't that religious and in my mind swearing was a tool for them to find out something that
doesn't concern them so i felt its ok to not tell them the truth. And it passed and i forgot about it because i knew i did the right thing by protecting the person, i knew God would understand. Now, maybe 5 years later, and the fact i am still suffering from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, i am trying to make steps to turn to God again and this thing popped out of nowhere? Do you think i did wrong back then? Should have i tell the truth of refuse to swear- which for those people would be as if i told them what they want to know. The secret i am talking about is nothing bad, its something personal that i dont think they have right to know? I didn't even ask God for forgivness back then because in my mind that wasn't valid because they were using this as tool for getting information which was wrong. Now i years later i feel i may have done wrong so i ask God for forgivness. Do you think that i should now contact those people, years later, and tell them i lied back then? I am certain they have long forgotten years ago, and also i dont want to bring back old things because they will reflect on the person that i was keeping secret about.
I will give you an example of what happened, because some may be confused about my post.
Lets say you have friends who's last name is Dumb (this is just example). You know his name is Dumb but you know if other find out about it they may make fun of him. So bunch of "friends" of yours suspect you know his real name because you are close to this person and ask you- "Is his last name really Dumb?", you ofcourse answer "No, his last name is Daniel (the name he prefers to use)". They say "Really, can you swear?". Now if i say "No, i can't", and since they know i am close to that person, in their heads it will signal that he really is named "Dumb" and will keep harrassing him for it. So i may have said "I swear", i really dont remember it was long ago, but even if i did, in my mind i was thinking "This is not valid, because they are using something Holly like making me swear for wrong purposes", so even if i said yes in my heart i didn't accept that swear. But somehow now, as i started to suffer from mental issues like OCD, it just popped out in my mind as if i did something wrong, and i wonder shall i reach to those people if i can find them and tell them "Do you remember about that person, yes his last name really was Dumb". I feel deep inside that would be wrong thing to do. What do you think friends?
I just want to point out, i wasn't really religious back then, so in my mind Oaths, Vows and other tools had no weight. For me those were just tools to trick someone into telling what others want to hear.
