- Nov 16, 2013
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- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Baptist
- Marital Status
- Single
- Politics
- US-Republican
I am hopeless at this point. I desperately want to marry and start a future with my boyfriend (Not during the coronavirus) but I'm so afraid that it's not in God's will for us to do so. If it's not, I'm still marrying him. But my anxiety will not let me stop thinking about God possibly not answering my prayer. This is so important to me and if God doesn't help me find a way to marry my boyfriend, I don't know what I will do. If God says "no" then I'll be crushed. Will God really tell me not to marry the man that I love? If it's not in God's will for us to marry, I'm afraid he will tell me that I shouldn't marry him. I will not live without my boyfriend in my life. I refuse to be miserable my entire life, because I deserve to get married and start a life with the man that I love. If it's not in God's will for us to marry, will he still bless the marriage? Will he still help us? I literally can't marry without God's help. If God says no, I'll accept it. I won't like it one bit, but I'll accept that he doesn't want to help me. But I'm still going to marry my boyfriend. He's the only one that makes me happy. Without him, I will die. I just want to be happy