Hi all, my OCD centers around a fear of idolatry. I have a distorted view of God (mostly because of my OCD and legalism). I want to put Him first in my life, but it is difficult. I do not experience warm, fuzzy feelings about Him, and bible reading and prayer are difficult because my OCD rituals get in the way -- needing to read and re-read things until I fully understand them and have no bad thoughts. I get more pleasure in "worldly" pursuits such as music, the arts (just saw Les Miserables and loved it), fashion/style, etc. To further compound things, whenever I go through difficulties/loss, I always feel it is God's discipline/punishment for my idolatry. I feel I have to give up everything that could possibly be an idol, yet I do not wish to give them up. I have prayed that God take away the desire for these things, yet it has not yet happened. I read somewhere that if one cannot part with something, then it is an idol.
Any ideas?
fashionista1
Any ideas?
fashionista1