I want to hurt myself

[Celticroots]

I want to hurt myself after a long time free. Today is a day when having a disability is really getting to me. I try to believe God had good in mind when I was born so early, but when I’ll need some type of support for the rest of my life and will never be able to live completely independently, I find it really hard to believe that God has good things in mind for me.

About being totally independent I know for a fact my health issues will prevent that. At almost 29 years old I know myself well enough to know what is and isn’t feasible for me.

Due to health issues I’ll never be able to work full time, live completely on myself own, pay my own bills, etc.

Especially when I am around people who don’t have these issues, I feel like an inadequate stick in the mud.

 

[Southernscotty]

I want to hurt myself after a long time free. Today is a day when having a disability is really getting to me. I try to believe God had good in mind when I was born so early, but when I’ll need some type of support for the rest of my life and will never be able to live completely independently, I find it really hard to believe that God has good things in mind for me.

About being totally independent I know for a fact my health issues will prevent that. At almost 29 years old I know myself well enough to know what is and isn’t feasible for me.

Due to health issues I’ll never be able to work full time, live completely on myself own, pay my own bills, etc.

Especially when I am around people who don’t have these issues, I feel like an inadequate stick in the mud.

I am so sorry for your situation but let me assure you dear friend, "God doesn't make junk" He made you specifically for His glory and you are very special to Him. You may not be able to work physically but look at the bright side, You can be a prayer warrior for others and help others when they are down.
You really are blessed to be in a particular situation like this if you think about it. God is enabling you with time and the necessities to help others online. I hope you will see the positive in this and give God glory :] Bless You:]

 

[Newsgurl]

I’m sorry that ur facing this but let me tell you God doesn’t make mistakes. I look back on my childhood when I got encephalitis at age 7 and I lost all of my memory and to this day I can’t remember anything before my sickness and some things I can’t learn like others and I can’t remember certain things. God made you for a reason and He has a plan for you just like He has a plan for everybody. Please don’t hurt yourself it’s not worth it. If you need someone to talk to I’m here for you

 

[dogs4thewin]

I am about the same. I am 26, but have CP as a result I have issues that will prevent me from ever living completely independently ( for one with my motor skills and balance I am afraid of the stove. I will never drive. As for work I probably COULD but not entry level and if I try and find that I cannot work and lose my benefits ( SSDI now that my dad has passed as opposed to SSI ( a less desirable program frankly. Although I would give anything to have my dad back and be on SSI. I too, have a record of self injury,and have been clean over seven years, so trust me you are NOT alone.

 

[Celticroots]

Thank you all for your replies. They've really helped me and given me hope. Thankfully I am feeling better since the day I made this post.

 

[Deniz]

As the Lord says, and as some of His children in this thread echo: "You are fearfully and wonderfully made."

The devil would love it if you believed you were a "mistake" and that God caused the situation that you are in and that Jesus doesn't have a plan for you; but none of it is true. If you were to know the thoughts and the overwhelming love that God personally has for you, all these lies would disintegrate never to return again.

And here is good news of great joy: You can know this love, and you can know His thoughts and His plan for you. All the Lord ever wants is a relationship with His children, and He keeps calling deeper and deeper to reveal His treasures for His beloved sons and daughters. The Bible says there's a time and a place to be born, and here you are. You have a very specific reason to be here, and a very loving and understanding God; who Himself submitted to have his flesh shredded, physically mauled, beaten with fists, pierced through his hands and feet and left to die on a cross. All so you may regain sonship, be restored to your eternal value and spend that eternity in His ineffable goodness after the laughable years on this earth pass.

Don't agree with lies, stay in His word and commune with His Holy Spirit. God loves you very much and yearns to show it to you; give Him the chance.

Hebrews 4:15
For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin.

Hebrews 2:18
For in that He Himself has suffered, being tempted, He is able to aid those who are tempted.

 

[shauntell rohner]

I want to hurt myself after a long time free. Today is a day when having a disability is really getting to me. I try to believe God had good in mind when I was born so early, but when I’ll need some type of support for the rest of my life and will never be able to live completely independently, I find it really hard to believe that God has good things in mind for me.

About being totally independent I know for a fact my health issues will prevent that. At almost 29 years old I know myself well enough to know what is and isn’t feasible for me.

Due to health issues I’ll never be able to work full time, live completely on myself own, pay my own bills, etc.

Especially when I am around people who don’t have these issues, I feel like an inadequate stick in the mud.

God loves you and you matter to Him. trust that God will provide, He won't leave you or forsake you, just trust and believe. theres nothing He cant do for you.

 

[SANTOSO]

I want to hurt myself after a long time free. Today is a day when having a disability is really getting to me. I try to believe God had good in mind when I was born so early, but when I’ll need some type of support for the rest of my life and will never be able to live completely independently, I find it really hard to believe that God has good things in mind for me.

About being totally independent I know for a fact my health issues will prevent that. At almost 29 years old I know myself well enough to know what is and isn’t feasible for me.

Due to health issues I’ll never be able to work full time, live completely on myself own, pay my own bills, etc.

Especially when I am around people who don’t have these issues, I feel like an inadequate stick in the mud.

Have you considered what the Lord has done that He heals the sick, the lame, the blind, the mute? Have you considered what the Lord to those who believe Him that they can lay hand on the sick that they recover and lay an anointing oil on the sick in the name of Jesus Christ that they are healed?