I want to be saved very badly but have took part in the "blasphemy challenge" in the past to win a free atheist dvd but now I a have started to see that God is real and the truth of creation and am terrified, how can I get saved is there any way if I committed the sin Jesus calls unpardonable. What is the point in living if I will just burn forever in hell no matter what I do....
Scripture teaches that no one seeks after God.
None is righteous, no, not one; no one understands; no one seeks for God.
Romans 3:10-11
Rather, those who come to God do so as a result of the Father drawing them.
No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him. And I will raise him up on the last day. It is written in the Prophets, And they will all be taught by God. Everyone who has heard and learned from the Father comes to me not that anyone has seen the Father except he who is from God; he has seen the Father. Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes has eternal life. I am the bread of life.
John 6:44-48
If the Father is drawing you to Him, then there was no unpardonable sin committed, because when Father draws a person who believes in faith the gospel of Christ, Jesus declares He will raise you up.
Athiests don't understand the ways of God, at all (1 Cor 2). Just because they determine you have committed the unpardonable sin, doesn't mean they actually have a clue what they are talking about. They speak out of their own ignorance.
Rather, the Father knows what's going on, and if He's calling to you, don't refuse Him.