I told God I wanted my life to be short

[Job405]

I was just feeling hopeless with these constant intrusive thoughts so I told in prayer God I wanted to be martyred for Christ and that I hoped my life would be short.

I almost immediately repented from that. I of course thank and glorify God for everything in my life, despite my infirmities. Do you think God will forgive me for that which I said? The tongue can speak life and death.

 

[brinny]

I was just feeling hopeless with these constant intrusive thoughts so I told in prayer God I wanted to be martyred for Christ and that I hoped my life would be short.

I almost immediately repented from that. I of course thank and glorify God for everything in my life, despite my infirmities. Do you think God will forgive me for that which I said? The tongue can speak life and death.

Awwwwww, He understands your heart, regardless of what our words are. Elijah was so weary and discouraged that he told God that he wanted to die. So have other prophets and people of God. Hang in there. Praying for you Job.

 

[Joined2krist]

Yes, He will forgive you

 

[Bobber]

I was just feeling hopeless with these constant intrusive thoughts so I told in prayer God I wanted to be martyred for Christ and that I hoped my life would be short.

What do you mean constant intrusive thoughts? And we'll never arrive at a place that there will never be a wrong thought that presents itself to your minds. We're told however how to deal with them, “Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;” 2 Cor 10:5

Do you think God will forgive me for that which I said?

Do you think God would tell you to do something he isn't willing to do? Didn't he insist that we all forgive? Why would he tell us to do it if he wasn't willing to do the same? He said if you confess your sins he's faithful and just to forgive your sins and cleanse you from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1;9 So he says YES I'm willing.

 

[Dave G.]

He already forgave you at the cross 2000 years ago. So confess it and claim the victory.

 

[ABCthings]

Yes. He will. Just be cautious of whatever you say next time.

 

[Albion]

I was just feeling hopeless with these constant intrusive thoughts so I told in prayer God I wanted to be martyred for Christ and that I hoped my life would be short.

I almost immediately repented from that. I of course thank and glorify God for everything in my life, despite my infirmities. Do you think God will forgive me for that which I said? The tongue can speak life and death.

I very much doubt that God will be guided by such an outburst. His plans for you will not be derailed by something like that. And you did repent, so I'd suggest putting the whole thing behind you.

 

[pdudgeon]

I was just feeling hopeless with these constant intrusive thoughts so I told in prayer God I wanted to be martyred for Christ and that I hoped my life would be short.

I almost immediately repented from that. I of course thank and glorify God for everything in my life, despite my infirmities. Do you think God will forgive me for that which I said? The tongue can speak life and death.

I would not worry over such a prayer.
In the first place, God already knows how long or short your life will be.

Secondly, the time of anyone's life--whether long or short--can be used to glorify God.
So it's best to concentrate on what use you make of your life, and what goals you will accomplish for God.

And let Him determine how long or short a time is allowed to you.