- Oct 14, 2018
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So for a long time now I've felt so down, tortured even. I was raised a Christian, but after high-school I stopped going to church and didn't have much of a relationship with God. I didn't stop believing, but I felt like I was becoming more distant. I met my wife, got married, got a good job and life was moving forward. We were trying to have children and my wife had 3 miscarriages and needed emergency surgery after the last one. Her mother had to battle breast cancer. My Dad had a stroke. Everything seemed like it was going wrong. I started becoming angry. This progressed for a while, but it worsened everyday. I got to a point that I would become so upset and out of control that I lossed myself. Literally it was as if I was no longer in control of myself. I would start to say terrible things, suicidal things, cursing God and Jesus. My wife was scared. After some time I would settle down and I would feel so terrible. Like a horrible person and husband. One time this happened and I was starting to walk down the stairs and I literally fell all the way down my stairs. By the grace of God I only suffered some bumps and bruises. The last time this happened, something occurred that completely freaked me out. This growling voice came out of me that I didn't even think was possible and I started talking about doing terrible things. This is when I started thinking maybe, this was a demon. Over the next couple of days it got weirder. I started feeling like something was standing over me all the time and watching me. Finally last night I was sitting on my computer doing some work and all of a sudden I heard my name whispered in my ear. It sent a chill down my spine. I was the only one in the room, it was quiet, it was plain as day. This was the last straw! So before I went to sleep last night I prayed, for the first time in a long time. I asked God to please protect me and my wife and cast a barrier over us. I asked forgiveness for the sins that I have committed and acknowledged that His son Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins. I asked for whatever was within me to please be expelled and for only Jesus to live within my heart and soul. After praying I immediately felt more at ease. After I fell asleep I had the craziest dream. In my dream I was in some kind of theatre or church. I was with someone that I didn't know, but in the front of the churxh/theatre on the stage area was a demon. It was very tall and was hovering above the ground. It was wearing a tattered white cloak, a long face with no real features and had horns that looked like dead tree branches. It spoke to me in a disturbing deep voice, but the voice came from in my own head, if that makes sense. It told me that my God was useless. I was terrified at first, but then thought of my prayer. I started actually giving it back to the demon. I remember saying that I was protected by God and that the demon was powerless and I wasn't afraid. He became angry and made me fly across the room. Then I remember yelling at the top of my lungs that the demon "Was Nothing!" this is when everything stopped, the room was quiet and empty and then I woke up. Now typically after a crazy dream like this I would have been freaked out. This is the most amazing part of this though. I actually felt great! I felt like me again, the happiest I've been in years. It's as if literally a weight has been lifted off of me. It's only been a day but I feel so good, I couldn't wait to share this story with the world because I do believe it was God giving me the power to rid myself of this demon. I can finally have my life back, and I'm going to stay close with the Lord along the way.
