I am a twice convicted sex offender who spent almost 22 years (combined) in prison. I was released a year ago and have been in treatment since. I make no excuses and take full responsibility for my abusive actions.
Simply put, I am attracted to boys 9-13 (14 & 15 if they look younger) and girls 12-15. However, I struggle mostly with boys. A day does not go by where I do not have a sexual thought about a young boy. Sometimes, it is a fleeting thought and other times the thoughts plague me continually throughout the day. Occasionally, it is triggered by seeing an attractive looking boy. While, other times, they occur for no apparent reason.
I have been a believer for many years. I have sought out God's forgiveness, guidance and strength to little avail. I have not acted out sexually with any children since being released but I have lusted after and fantasized about boys.
I hate what I have become, how I feel and the thoughts that I have about boys. I only want to be delivered from this torment. I felt that I should turn to this forum rather than some worldly psychological site where believers are marginalized or belittled.
Simply put, I am attracted to boys 9-13 (14 & 15 if they look younger) and girls 12-15. However, I struggle mostly with boys. A day does not go by where I do not have a sexual thought about a young boy. Sometimes, it is a fleeting thought and other times the thoughts plague me continually throughout the day. Occasionally, it is triggered by seeing an attractive looking boy. While, other times, they occur for no apparent reason.
I have been a believer for many years. I have sought out God's forgiveness, guidance and strength to little avail. I have not acted out sexually with any children since being released but I have lusted after and fantasized about boys.
I hate what I have become, how I feel and the thoughts that I have about boys. I only want to be delivered from this torment. I felt that I should turn to this forum rather than some worldly psychological site where believers are marginalized or belittled.