So i have had severe anxiety for about 5 years since i was diagnosed with a disease that could be deadly but most of the time isnt. anyways this last september they thought i had ovarian cancer and i had to go thought lots of testing and wait for several weeks and im only 25 so this really scared me and put me in a deep depression and it was horrible. but one day during all of this i was sitting in church and i go to a pentecostal church very active in church and have the holy ghost was raised in pentecost and everything. i was sitting in church and all of a sudden i started getting these crazy bad thoughts in my mind like the word hate and stupid and just terrible words started popping up in my mind and i immeditatly rebuked them because there was no way those were to god and then after that sunday i started obsessing over the thoughts wondering why i thought that and now ever since i think terrible thoughts towards god. i cant get them out of my head. its hard for me to pray, read my bible anything because of these thoughts. they are taking me away from god seems like. im terrified he doesnt forgive me. i hate this so much, i wish they would stop. Could this be a spiritual warfare? i dont know what to do. i would never tell my pastor because he might think im crazy or possesed. Ive done research and they are actually called intrusive thoughts and religious ocd. i know this will send me to hell. even thought i have the thoughts in church and when i pray i still pray and go to church but i dont know if i should go see a psyciatrist or talk to my pastor. has anyone else had this. please help!