Hello everybody. Well this is embarrassing. I wouldn't talk to anybody in person about it. I'm a 21 year old guy in college. I am a Christian but often I'm terribly ashamed of my behavior and know beyond a doubt that I deserve hell. I cling to Christ for salvation but I know I can't keep living like this. My biggest problem is that I'm really lustful. I love women, I don't just see them as objects but my mind goes to places sexually where it never should. I'm a virgin though. Here's something that further complicates my situation, I've never even talked to a girl or been on a date because I'm so shy I don't think I ever will. I think it would help if I could find a girl to marry but I'm too shy to. To be honest I don't think I could ever have sex with a woman even within a Christian marriage, because of the way I am; I'd just be too embarrassed. I want to live the Christian life, but I have urges that lead me astray. You don't know how many times I've prayed about it and how much guilt I've felt over it. I guess in short, I feel like I have misplaced sexual desire. It should be spent on finding a wife but my shyness gets in the way so I end up taking it out in ungodly sinful ways. Please pray for me if possible and please give me any advice you have. Thank you and God bless you all so much.
I am 67 years old, and at 21 I was like you, knowing no women, terribly shy but obsessively driven by lustful thoughts.
I became a Christian in my mid 20s and the battle didn't change. I was plagued with constant unclean and guilty feelings and was always pleading with God to forgive and cleanse me.
Then one day, I realised that my constant pleading with God was because I did not believe that my forgiveness was a done deal on the cross. Every time I whined and pleaded, I was in fact confessing I didn't believe he had already done it.
I immediately changed my prayers, and every time the guilty thoughts came, I would thank God that he had cleansed and forgiven me. To put it simply, the result was astonishing, the voices and thoughts of condemnation disappeared and I had peace for the first time in decades.
I also realised that the lustful thoughts and temptations were actually demonic spirits which had gained a hold in my boys only school, most likely from the inappropriate contentography that floated around. I had become spiritually enslaved to demons and reacted to the goads they kept prodding me with.
Once I realised what it was, I started addressing the demons in Jesus name and casting them out. I took every lustful thought captive (which were actually indwelling demons) and threw it out of me. Just as Jesus commanded us.
The lust and other sexual uncleanness completely disappeared from my life years and years ago.
It is obvious to me that you have been taken captive by similar evil spirits.
Start by accepting that you have been cleansed, and no matter how often you fall, when you turn to him, he still forgives, just as he taught the disciples.
Then either start casting the demons out yourself, or go to a church that walks in that authority and ask them to help you.