I’m struggling. I lead the women’s ministry at church. I’ve been a born again Christian for years. God has been doing something new in me recently. Yet the last few month I’ve started going onto gambling sites. I won £700 and then it kinda snowballed. I’m so ashamed and so embarrassed. I’ve repented, asked for forgiveness yet still don’t have enough self control to say no! I repent, think I’ve got it, then the next day spend another £20. I’m so angry about it! It’s pathetic and shameful. I want to live honourably. My husband felt God say to take control of our finances earlier in the year and so he’s been so wise and done a budget etc, yet I’m doing this! It’s so deceitful. I don’t really know what I’m asking for other than prayer. I know we all sin but I don’t WANT this!! I want to honour God and my husband in our finances and this just isn’t what I expected to struggle with!