I never thought anyone would fall in love with me. Much less did I ever dream there would be two of them.
Also, I never expected myself to fall in love with anyone. Much less did I think it would be such a problem when I did...
I know this is a stupid situation. But it's a situation nonetheless, and I have no idea what to do. I just turned 20, and I'm hoping to get the opinions of some people of faith about what to do.
So boy #1: he's the sweetest, most selfless boy (at least to me). We have very similar if not identical beliefs about God. I can tell that his faith is alive and active. He's always there for me when I need prayer or support. And... he's head over heels for me. We've been friends for over a year, and he's just recently "sorted out his feelings" for me and managed to ask me out. I told him we'd go on a few dates and see how things went, no commitments yet. We've been on one date, and it was nice, but...
The problem: I don't feel anything for him. I should! Any girl would be so lucky to have him! But I don't. He's not always easy to talk to, and sometimes he is sarcastic in a way that unnerves me, although it shouldn't. His interests and opinions deviate from mine significantly. But he's a great friend.
I feel like the reason I don't feel anything for him, though, is this...
Boy #2: We are so dissimilar. But he has a passion for life that I can't help but admire. He's so positive, so alive. We see life the same way, it feels like. We can talk for hours. He gives me the best butterflies... he has for about a year now. I tried to tamp those feelings down, because I thought there was no chance, but then he asked me. I said yes of course, even though I felt a bit guilty, on account of boy #1. On the date, he shyly told me he's had a thing for me for months, almost as long as I've had a thing for him.
The problem: I am nondenominational. Think... bible church. He is, in his own words, a "Cradle Catholic." ice done a lot of research, and I've realized that that comes with a lot of things. I'm pretty sure I would eventually have to join the Catholic Church if this relationship were to last. And I can't. That's out of the question.
Because of that, I've been trying to get over him for A YEAR. I don't want to sacrifice our friendship for a relationship that can't last. I need him in my life, and if I lose his friendship, not only would I destroy our friend group, but I would be so, so sad. And I almost managed to get rid of the feelings! But now they are all back and I think they're here to stay. I don't understand why God would let my heart bind me to this boy if I'm not supposed to be with him.
My Catholic boy knows all the details of this situation (because I tell him everything! We are so close! Basically my best friend!) but boy #1 does not.
So there you have it. Boy #1, if I found him in a textbook, is exactly what would be good for me, my future, and my walk with Christ. Boy #2, the love of my life... it's hard to talk about God with him, because we inevitably run into differences that are not reconcilable (or at least it feels that way).
This is nothing against Catholics!! Through this experience, I've learned a lot about the capital-C Church. I've done a lot of research. I admire you guys and I think you've got a lot of things right that my church is missing. My Catholic boy has a great relationship with God. He is devout and striving and his heart is in the right place. I just... I know that I could never be Catholic. There are certain things that I believe the capital-C Church has gotten wrong. Things I can't follow. Things I don't want to be a part of. I love my church, the spirit is alive there, and I'm fed there. I know what I believe. But I would never want this boy to change, at least not on my account! Sometimes I think his spiritual life would skyrocket if he did change. But if he ever does, it can't be for me.
If these two boys hadn't asked me at the EXACT SAME TIME, there would be no issue. But I can't keep going on dates with both of them. And whoever I let down... I'll probably lose forever.
Any advice...?
Also, I never expected myself to fall in love with anyone. Much less did I think it would be such a problem when I did...
I know this is a stupid situation. But it's a situation nonetheless, and I have no idea what to do. I just turned 20, and I'm hoping to get the opinions of some people of faith about what to do.
So boy #1: he's the sweetest, most selfless boy (at least to me). We have very similar if not identical beliefs about God. I can tell that his faith is alive and active. He's always there for me when I need prayer or support. And... he's head over heels for me. We've been friends for over a year, and he's just recently "sorted out his feelings" for me and managed to ask me out. I told him we'd go on a few dates and see how things went, no commitments yet. We've been on one date, and it was nice, but...
The problem: I don't feel anything for him. I should! Any girl would be so lucky to have him! But I don't. He's not always easy to talk to, and sometimes he is sarcastic in a way that unnerves me, although it shouldn't. His interests and opinions deviate from mine significantly. But he's a great friend.
I feel like the reason I don't feel anything for him, though, is this...
Boy #2: We are so dissimilar. But he has a passion for life that I can't help but admire. He's so positive, so alive. We see life the same way, it feels like. We can talk for hours. He gives me the best butterflies... he has for about a year now. I tried to tamp those feelings down, because I thought there was no chance, but then he asked me. I said yes of course, even though I felt a bit guilty, on account of boy #1. On the date, he shyly told me he's had a thing for me for months, almost as long as I've had a thing for him.
The problem: I am nondenominational. Think... bible church. He is, in his own words, a "Cradle Catholic." ice done a lot of research, and I've realized that that comes with a lot of things. I'm pretty sure I would eventually have to join the Catholic Church if this relationship were to last. And I can't. That's out of the question.
Because of that, I've been trying to get over him for A YEAR. I don't want to sacrifice our friendship for a relationship that can't last. I need him in my life, and if I lose his friendship, not only would I destroy our friend group, but I would be so, so sad. And I almost managed to get rid of the feelings! But now they are all back and I think they're here to stay. I don't understand why God would let my heart bind me to this boy if I'm not supposed to be with him.
My Catholic boy knows all the details of this situation (because I tell him everything! We are so close! Basically my best friend!) but boy #1 does not.
So there you have it. Boy #1, if I found him in a textbook, is exactly what would be good for me, my future, and my walk with Christ. Boy #2, the love of my life... it's hard to talk about God with him, because we inevitably run into differences that are not reconcilable (or at least it feels that way).
This is nothing against Catholics!! Through this experience, I've learned a lot about the capital-C Church. I've done a lot of research. I admire you guys and I think you've got a lot of things right that my church is missing. My Catholic boy has a great relationship with God. He is devout and striving and his heart is in the right place. I just... I know that I could never be Catholic. There are certain things that I believe the capital-C Church has gotten wrong. Things I can't follow. Things I don't want to be a part of. I love my church, the spirit is alive there, and I'm fed there. I know what I believe. But I would never want this boy to change, at least not on my account! Sometimes I think his spiritual life would skyrocket if he did change. But if he ever does, it can't be for me.
If these two boys hadn't asked me at the EXACT SAME TIME, there would be no issue. But I can't keep going on dates with both of them. And whoever I let down... I'll probably lose forever.
Any advice...?