I have BPD and my life is chaotic

[quartzy]

Yes I have BPD which is OK in itself but my life is not right. I know I need to change it but how, when all I do is worry about what needs doing. I need to stop smoking, go out every day. I need to work, travel, eat properly and improve my health I am now 60.
But it is like I have no idea on where to begin. Everyday I am plagued by health issues of one sort or another today it is dizziness from middle ear infection, I am afraid to go back to my doctor as they do not take me seriously but I dont know how to get rid of this infection on its own, as I have had it for 5 weeks. Getting dressed is a problem of dressing warm enough in this cold weather and walking outside when I panic and cant breathe is another. Has anyone else took hold of their life and sorted it out? I just have no interest in relationships at this time I need to look after me then I can learn to love as God wants me too.

 

[joshua 1 9]

when I panic and cant breathe is another.

You can not breathe because you have to empty your lungs. They taught me to exhale for twice as long as you inhale. Once you learn how to exhale then it is a lot easier to inhale. Of course somewhere along the way you have to decide if you want to live or not and it you want to live you will need to quit smoking. I quit after 40 years. If I had not then I would not be here having this conversation with you. They have exercise programs at the hospital that you can go through and they can teach you what you need to do. Hopefully your insurance will cover it.

To clear your ear you need to do like they teach you on the airplane. Yawn and do chewing motions with your jaw. That will help to drain the tube in your ear. They say that people that chew gum have less ear infections.

 

[quartzy]

thank you, though I face that decision everyday more or less, do I want to live is the big question and you caught on it. I dont have medical insurance as I live in the UK and rely on NHS.

 

[Bluerose31]

Yes I have BPD which is OK in itself but my life is not right. I know I need to change it but how, when all I do is worry about what needs doing. I need to stop smoking, go out every day. I need to work, travel, eat properly and improve my health I am now 60.
But it is like I have no idea on where to begin. Everyday I am plagued by health issues of one sort or another today it is dizziness from middle ear infection, I am afraid to go back to my doctor as they do not take me seriously but I dont know how to get rid of this infection on its own, as I have had it for 5 weeks. Getting dressed is a problem of dressing warm enough in this cold weather and walking outside when I panic and cant breathe is another. Has anyone else took hold of their life and sorted it out? I just have no interest in relationships at this time I need to look after me then I can learn to love as God wants me too.

I am sorry you are suffering so much. I also have BPD and it can cause extreme stress and emotional pain. I hope you are feeling better and that your infection is healing.