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bluephlox
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I posted this in the Chaplain area of this forum because I did not see this section. I'm so sorry for posting this twice but I really do need some advice. This is my first time being on this forum and with so many categories I didn't see this one. Again I'm sorry for posting this twice but I think this category might be better suited for my problem. It is about a dream I had two nights ago.
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My dream started with me sitting at a table looking out of a window. I could see a road and on the other side of it were some tall trees and bushes. It was well kept though so I got the impression it was a park or a public area for people to go walking or that sort of thing.
As I was sitting there I saw a black misty figure start to form under one of the trees. It started to float in my direction. The entity crossed the street and was traveling directly towards me. My heart started to beat so hard and an extreme fear crept over my whole body.
The figure came straight to me and entered into my body. Nothing I could do would stop it. I screamed for God to help me. The immense energy from this entity was demonic and evil. It wanted to take my body and it wanted me to submit to it. I didn't though. I kept saying God please help me as loud as I could. After several moments the entity disappeared.
Unfortunately this was not the end of my dream. I witnessed myself having to face this entity on a daily basis in my dream. It was as if every day this "thing" would find me wherever I was. It always did the same thing as well. It started to form a short distance in front of me and then it would head straight towards me. When it reached me it I could feel a war going on inside my body. It physically hurt. I had to fight it and force it to leave me every time. It never seemed to get stronger but it was relentless.
Eventually I went to a Church for help even though I am not a Christian. I felt this entity was demonic and I did not know what else to do. The preacher at the first church I went to was unable to help. He told me that I simply needed to start going to church for the entity to leave me alone. This was not true though because it kept happening to me no matter who was around or where I was even in church.
Instead of giving up I went to another church. I told the preacher about my problem and his advice made more sense to me. He told me that instead of only asking for God's protection when I saw the entity to ask for it several times throughout the day and at night. He said that God could always help me but I had only been considering God when the entity was approaching me and the danger was immediate.
I explained to him that I was not a Christian but I used to be. Whenever I saw this demon coming towards me my first immediate thought was to ask God to defend me. I was defenseless unless I had a higher power to call upon. This was 100% true because there were no words or actions I could use myself that worked unless I said "God, Please help Me". When I said those words the demon would get angry and leave.
I decided to go back to church that night to give my soul to Jesus once and for all. I felt it was the only thing that would protect me for good. As I was walking down the street to the church all of the street lights went out. Directly in front of me appeared an actual demon and not just misty figure. It had a human shape, a disfigured face, fangs and darkened wings which allowed it to fly.
The demon flew on top of the power lines and was laughing at me. I had my Bible with me and I started to read it out loud. I was so terrified it was the only thing I could do. I could see the church ahead of me but I could not move my body. It was either the fear or the demon which was not allowing my feet to move.
I stood there in the darkness trying to read the words on the pages. The demon flew directly towards me landing in front of my face. It tried to get me to stop reading by laughing and taunting me. I didn't stop though. I just kept reading. The more I read the more it angered the demon. Eventually my feet could move again and I ran into the church.
I told the preacher what happened. All of the church members started to pray for me. Then the lights in the church suddenly went out. The demon had followed me inside the church. The entire roof of the church collapsed. We were all running as fast as we could. When we got outside I looked back at the destruction. The demon was standing in front of the church heading towards me.
Instead of being afraid this time I was angry. This thing had just tried to kill the people who wanted to help me. I walked directly towards the demon and in a stern voice said "you have no control over my soul and you cannot have me". The demon laughed at me again but something about it had changed. It seemed less scary to me now because I had faced this thing more than once now.
I turned around and the preacher and other church members were standing directly behind me. For the first time someone else could actually see the demon. Before that moment no one could see it but me. Together we all prayed for God to destroy this evil entity. The preacher took my hand and I closed my eyes. When I opened them the demon was gone. Then I woke up.
Needless to say I didn't go back to sleep that night. Instead I stayed up wondering if I should become a Christian again or of this was just a really bad dream with no meaning. I am a spiritual person and have always believed Jesus was a real person. I have doubts about Christianity because many stories in the Bible, even Jesus himself, have many similarities to pagan beliefs before Christianity was ever around. I'm very conflicted because of this fact and cannot seem to get myself to become a Christian again. This dream was the scariest one I have had in a while. It's been on my mind all day. I need someone to tell me what they think about it.
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My dream started with me sitting at a table looking out of a window. I could see a road and on the other side of it were some tall trees and bushes. It was well kept though so I got the impression it was a park or a public area for people to go walking or that sort of thing.
As I was sitting there I saw a black misty figure start to form under one of the trees. It started to float in my direction. The entity crossed the street and was traveling directly towards me. My heart started to beat so hard and an extreme fear crept over my whole body.
The figure came straight to me and entered into my body. Nothing I could do would stop it. I screamed for God to help me. The immense energy from this entity was demonic and evil. It wanted to take my body and it wanted me to submit to it. I didn't though. I kept saying God please help me as loud as I could. After several moments the entity disappeared.
Unfortunately this was not the end of my dream. I witnessed myself having to face this entity on a daily basis in my dream. It was as if every day this "thing" would find me wherever I was. It always did the same thing as well. It started to form a short distance in front of me and then it would head straight towards me. When it reached me it I could feel a war going on inside my body. It physically hurt. I had to fight it and force it to leave me every time. It never seemed to get stronger but it was relentless.
Eventually I went to a Church for help even though I am not a Christian. I felt this entity was demonic and I did not know what else to do. The preacher at the first church I went to was unable to help. He told me that I simply needed to start going to church for the entity to leave me alone. This was not true though because it kept happening to me no matter who was around or where I was even in church.
Instead of giving up I went to another church. I told the preacher about my problem and his advice made more sense to me. He told me that instead of only asking for God's protection when I saw the entity to ask for it several times throughout the day and at night. He said that God could always help me but I had only been considering God when the entity was approaching me and the danger was immediate.
I explained to him that I was not a Christian but I used to be. Whenever I saw this demon coming towards me my first immediate thought was to ask God to defend me. I was defenseless unless I had a higher power to call upon. This was 100% true because there were no words or actions I could use myself that worked unless I said "God, Please help Me". When I said those words the demon would get angry and leave.
I decided to go back to church that night to give my soul to Jesus once and for all. I felt it was the only thing that would protect me for good. As I was walking down the street to the church all of the street lights went out. Directly in front of me appeared an actual demon and not just misty figure. It had a human shape, a disfigured face, fangs and darkened wings which allowed it to fly.
The demon flew on top of the power lines and was laughing at me. I had my Bible with me and I started to read it out loud. I was so terrified it was the only thing I could do. I could see the church ahead of me but I could not move my body. It was either the fear or the demon which was not allowing my feet to move.
I stood there in the darkness trying to read the words on the pages. The demon flew directly towards me landing in front of my face. It tried to get me to stop reading by laughing and taunting me. I didn't stop though. I just kept reading. The more I read the more it angered the demon. Eventually my feet could move again and I ran into the church.
I told the preacher what happened. All of the church members started to pray for me. Then the lights in the church suddenly went out. The demon had followed me inside the church. The entire roof of the church collapsed. We were all running as fast as we could. When we got outside I looked back at the destruction. The demon was standing in front of the church heading towards me.
Instead of being afraid this time I was angry. This thing had just tried to kill the people who wanted to help me. I walked directly towards the demon and in a stern voice said "you have no control over my soul and you cannot have me". The demon laughed at me again but something about it had changed. It seemed less scary to me now because I had faced this thing more than once now.
I turned around and the preacher and other church members were standing directly behind me. For the first time someone else could actually see the demon. Before that moment no one could see it but me. Together we all prayed for God to destroy this evil entity. The preacher took my hand and I closed my eyes. When I opened them the demon was gone. Then I woke up.
Needless to say I didn't go back to sleep that night. Instead I stayed up wondering if I should become a Christian again or of this was just a really bad dream with no meaning. I am a spiritual person and have always believed Jesus was a real person. I have doubts about Christianity because many stories in the Bible, even Jesus himself, have many similarities to pagan beliefs before Christianity was ever around. I'm very conflicted because of this fact and cannot seem to get myself to become a Christian again. This dream was the scariest one I have had in a while. It's been on my mind all day. I need someone to tell me what they think about it.