I feel like a really horrible person.

[SnowTiger]

I've been dealing with a lot of guilt over things from the past. It doesn't help that I hear a voice in my head that constantly reminds me of everything I've done wrong.

I hear a nice voice in my head who says that every day is a new day. He says that I don't have to associate myself with my past sins. But is this true? I keep feeling like I'm being punished for being guilty. I feel like I committed the unforgivable sin so the gospel doesn't apply to me anymore.

Imagine what it would be like to believe that Jesus died for everyone else's sins but not for yours. That is how I feel these days.

I'm going to school and I really like school, but I feel like I made bets in my head with Jesus about my grades. I feel like I will be punished eternally for getting certain grades in school. So I'm going to school but I'm constantly struggling with the feeling that I have to quit.

I don't want to quit but I feel like I have to or else I will be punished forever. No one I know thinks that this will happen, but for some reason I really believe it is true. I feel like if I get a certain grade in college I will be teleported into hell. I've seen things being teleported before (including my own dad and another person). I feel like all these things are signs that I'm going to hell. I even found magical writing around the house talking about death and hell and dying and stuff.

In short, I feel unforgivable. The nice voice in my head says I'm not, but I don't believe him. I'm constantly arguing with him about things. I feel like a truly horrible person. Is there any hope?

Thank you!

 

[mukk_in]

I've been dealing with a lot of guilt over things from the past. It doesn't help that I hear a voice in my head that constantly reminds me of everything I've done wrong.

I hear a nice voice in my head who says that every day is a new day. He says that I don't have to associate myself with my past sins. But is this true? I keep feeling like I'm being punished for being guilty. I feel like I committed the unforgivable sin so the gospel doesn't apply to me anymore.

Imagine what it would be like to believe that Jesus died for everyone else's sins but not for yours. That is how I feel these days.

I'm going to school and I really like school, but I feel like I made bets in my head with Jesus about my grades. I feel like I will be punished eternally for getting certain grades in school. So I'm going to school but I'm constantly struggling with the feeling that I have to quit.

I don't want to quit but I feel like I have to or else I will be punished forever. No one I know thinks that this will happen, but for some reason I really believe it is true. I feel like if I get a certain grade in college I will be teleported into hell. I've seen things being teleported before (including my own dad and another person). I feel like all these things are signs that I'm going to hell. I even found magical writing around the house talking about death and hell and dying and stuff.

In short, I feel unforgivable. The nice voice in my head says I'm not, but I don't believe him. I'm constantly arguing with him about things. I feel like a truly horrible person. Is there any hope?

Thank you!

Train yourself to listen more to the Holy Spirit and shut out the noise, my friend. There's always hope, if you believe in Jesus. God bless .

 

[HoneyBee]

I'm not well-versed in Schizophrenia and psychosis things, and for that reason I don't feel comfortable giving advice on this, but I believe that there is hope for you yet, you wonderful person! And please know that God sees your struggle and is probably being very understanding towards you, knowing that you might not have any control over these thoughts that you have. So sorry that you are struggling, friend. I'll be praying for you.

 

[Tolworth John]

I hear a nice voice in my head who says that every day is a new day. He says that I don't have to associate myself with my past sins. But is this true? I keep feeling like I'm being punished for being guilty. I feel like I committed the unforgivable sin so the gospel doesn't apply to me anymore.

Please talk to your councellor about your voices, also are you taking your medication?

As a Christian you are not punished for your past or present sins. Jesus took everything to do with those sins on himself.
He took everything so you do not have to bare any punishment.
Only Christians worry about commiting the unforgivable sin. Those who have commited it are not worried that they have because they are unconcerned about Jesus.

 

[Drifter Kybe Scythe Kane]

I've been dealing with a lot of guilt over things from the past. It doesn't help that I hear a voice in my head that constantly reminds me of everything I've done wrong.

I hear a nice voice in my head who says that every day is a new day. He says that I don't have to associate myself with my past sins. But is this true? I keep feeling like I'm being punished for being guilty. I feel like I committed the unforgivable sin so the gospel doesn't apply to me anymore.

Imagine what it would be like to believe that Jesus died for everyone else's sins but not for yours. That is how I feel these days.

I'm going to school and I really like school, but I feel like I made bets in my head with Jesus about my grades. I feel like I will be punished eternally for getting certain grades in school. So I'm going to school but I'm constantly struggling with the feeling that I have to quit.

I don't want to quit but I feel like I have to or else I will be punished forever. No one I know thinks that this will happen, but for some reason I really believe it is true. I feel like if I get a certain grade in college I will be teleported into hell. I've seen things being teleported before (including my own dad and another person). I feel like all these things are signs that I'm going to hell. I even found magical writing around the house talking about death and hell and dying and stuff.

In short, I feel unforgivable. The nice voice in my head says I'm not, but I don't believe him. I'm constantly arguing with him about things. I feel like a truly horrible person. Is there any hope?

Thank you!

You are doing well to not forget your mistakes from your past-that's why you don't do them again. You never know if there is not a chance or there is to have those voices of yours go away that keeps reminding you of your past sins however. I believe you need to pick something up on the way in your life called meds from a psychiatrist doctor, prayers for yourself and from others, spiritual help, like that. You can then smile at yourself mentally, physically, and spiritually with a sigh of relief from meds and spiritual meditation. Take these other positive voices you speak of in your hands and use for it good which is the secret to God-why do you think he made prayer? These positive voices of yours saying every day is a new day is true for the next day, the sun will rise... Remember Jesus is love-he'll love you no matter what. There is always hope dude, even for me. God bless and keep your chin up.

 

[SnowTiger]

I've tried to accept Jesus, but I feel like I'm just too terrible. I'm a truly horrible person. My sins are unending.

They're going to bury me alive if I get a C. I know they will.

 

[SnowTiger]

Even the good voice is telling me to quit college now. I feel like I have to quit college and there is no way out.

 

[SnowTiger]

I keep fighting with my voices. There are certain things I've done that are unforgivable. At least I feel that way. I feel like God and Jesus can never forgive me. I'm miserable all day long.

 

[Drifter Kybe Scythe Kane]

Even the good voice is telling me to quit college now. I feel like I have to quit college and there is no way out.

you may need a team of specialists that can help you in your personal arena of troubles in your life so to speak. i feel that's the variant in your life that you need. i'm a schizoaffective so i know some of what you are talking about. you can go light at the beginning by having monthly therapeutic sessions, then weekly, and go from there if you want by the way. you can let us know if you already have a team of professionals helping you if you want. i suggest you explore these darker times and sides to yourself with such people though and not keep it to yourself. if not, i'm sure you'll adapt to such services if want the help. remember people like us SnowTiger are not uncommon. you are not alone in these things i assure you. your skill with coping mechanisms and working with such serives will automatically come. just get a team if you want. i feel for me at least there are more possibilities services wise like doctors, nurses, and therapists and the like meaning getting the type of results of such possibilities with them. In my experience, some things that were troubling me were in the last of my troubles but there are sometimes new troubles that arise and these people can help like they did me in some things. trust me, compared to me you are the author of your own life.

 

[SnowTiger]

Today I feel like I'm a fraud. I told people I have schizophrenia, but I really believe that I have demons in my head. I feel like a liar and a fraud for telling people I have schizophrenia. People don't believe in demons any more so I just tell people I have schizophrenia.

I feel like a truly horrible person. A voice in my head keeps saying, "maybe you're not a bad person." Then I tell the voice that I am a horrible person. I tell the voice, "you know as well as I do that I'm a horrible person. So shut up!" I keep telling the good voice in my head that Jesus is going to repay me in full. God is going to repay me in full.

I'm not sure what to do. I guess I should try to look on the bright side of things. Maybe I should talk to my psychiatrist more often. I don't call him very much at all.

 

[GeorgeJ]

I told people I have schizophrenia, but I really believe that I have demons in my head.

If you really believe this, then this forum is not for you. There are specific guidelines in the Mental Health forums that prohibit posts that suggest mental health issues are demonic in nature or linked to spiritual warfare. You may be able to post your concerns here: Sign Gifts

Maybe I should talk to my psychiatrist more often. I don't call him very much at all.

This is something you need to do right away, and often. Mental disorders are not demonic. Don't fool yourself or let others talk you into believing they are.

 

[SnowTiger]

Okay, I won't post about that on here again.

Thanks.

 

[SnowTiger]

I keep telling my voices that I'm a horrible person. I hear a nice voice that says "maybe you're not a horrible person." Then I keep telling the voice all the things I've done and because I did those things I'm a horrible person. I really feel like I'm really bad.

How should I deal with guilt? I really feel guilty and think that terrible things will happen to me because I'm a terrible person.

 

[Drifter Kybe Scythe Kane]

I keep telling my voices that I'm a horrible person. I hear a nice voice that says "maybe you're not a horrible person." Then I keep telling the voice all the things I've done and because I did those things I'm a horrible person. I really feel like I'm really bad.

How should I deal with guilt? I really feel guilty and think that terrible things will happen to me because I'm a terrible person.

first of all, i wanna let you know no one is alone...love exists...so trust me, love matters...study things if you have to...study life...side approach things if you must...don't give yourself demons of doubt and instead emerge with comfortability for yourself and others...only you can stop yourself...you're not a bad person thus...have harmony as your foundation...then you will have been freed...and don't underestimate yourself...be happy...corruption and doubt has lost long time ago...you're not a servant to anyone...never let anyone tell you such things...you be you with harmony as your foundation...you are thus never hopeless...

 

[SnowTiger]

I keep thinking I'm going to hell and nothing I can do can stop it.

I finished reading Matthew today in the Bible today. I'm going to try to read the whole New Testament. It made me feel bad though.

I feel like I'm just like Judas Iscariot. I'm an evil traitor. I also read the part about the goats and the sheep and I think I'm a goat. Also, I read the part about the weeds and the wheat. I think I'm a weed.

I wish I could feel better, but I keep hearing this awful voice in my head laughing at me and cursing me. I know that it's the devil. Sometimes I think Jesus doesn't love me though.

 

[anna ~ grace]

I keep thinking I'm going to hell and nothing I can do can stop it.

I finished reading Matthew today in the Bible today. I'm going to try to read the whole New Testament. It made me feel bad though.

I feel like I'm just like Judas Iscariot. I'm an evil traitor. I also read the part about the goats and the sheep and I think I'm a goat. Also, I read the part about the weeds and the wheat. I think I'm a weed.

Snow, this awful voice is not you, not God. It's an annoying, evil thing that is aiming to sink you.

Jesus loves you, Snow. You are not beyond mercy. Or unforgivable. You are a sweet, precious, humble, dear guy, whom God loves.

"Jesus, King of Love, I trust in Your merciful goodness!" Try praying that. The mean voice in your head doesn't know a thing.

 

[SnowTiger]

Snow, this awful voice is not you, not God. It's an annoying, evil thing that is aiming to sink you.

Jesus loves you, Snow. You are not beyond mercy. Or unforgivable. You are a sweet, precious, humble, dear guy, whom God loves.

"Jesus, King of Love, I trust in Your merciful goodness!" Try praying that. The mean voice in your head doesn't know a thing.

Okay, I will try that. Thank you.

 

[Lily76_]

you not horrible person your a child of God that makes you beautiful and unique

 

[SnowTiger]

Thank you. I want to believe it. I keep thinking of all my sins and I keep getting down about the past. I don't know if I can ever forgive myself. I hear voices in my head all the time and I constantly argue with them. One voice tells me that I'm not a bad person. The voice says that I can leave the past behind. I keep arguing with it though. I keep thinking that the past is too powerful.

 

[anna ~ grace]

Thank you. I want to believe it. I keep thinking of all my sins and I keep getting down about the past. I don't know if I can ever forgive myself.

Forgiving ourselves is kind of a semi-made up thing. We must ask God's forgiveness, trust in His loving mercy, and keep walking, with His help. We will still stumble, but He knows this. He still loves us and will help us, friend. And forgive us, when we sincerely ask. As you have done, and are doing.