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That is my issue... Like, I.. Sometimes I wonder why I keep coming back here because I don't feel like a Christian.... I dont read or pray... But despite what has happened-- I still believe in God ( somehow... I cant get rid of it)
I just want back what I lost, just to simply believe God liked me..and that he was happy with me. I see people on YouTube with awesome testimonies how they're so close knit with God, how God did this and that for them... And I ..i never had that. Idk why but even before the damage ( will get into soon) happen ... I had some experiences with God...mostly dreams..but it was never anything thatd make you go.." That was 100% God" idk alot of Christians make it seem like youre supposed to get an answer to every prayer, or hear clearly from God and be les by his spirit always.. ( also I still never experienced his leading..) so it just made me feel like I was defective or God just didnt like me.
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That's one of the reason's its hard for me to trust God..bc its like he says he wants to be close, talk to you, give you his promises...BUT...it seems everyone else is able to do it but me .... So in that sense I felt like a carrot was being dangled in front of my face.
Now on to the damage..
I'm gonna make this short and bullet point it
▶ Pastor treated me differently , called my mom told her I was a liar and not to believe anything I said. Would rebuke me in front of others, asked if the spirit of Judas was in me, prophesied id be in a shelter..and told me God has mercy on whom he has mercy... And I didnt do anything to warrant that..infact before service...my brothers and I would clean her home ...and i bathed her once when she was ill ...and helped her take her medicine... So I didnt do anything mean or malicious to warrent all that.
▶ Current situation- As I've stated in other threads, I got kicked out of school.. And (gonna back track) when I was in church and what not... I feel like even when I was " blessed" itd be with Jobs I couldn't do... When id hear from someone else the job they'd have is a breeze to get through... And just the whole being in a crampt hotel with my family for 3 years...having set back after set back..
So my faith in God was forcefully eroded.. I cant trust anymore, I have no faith...accept to believe that God is...it is simply impossible for me to believe God doesn't hate me or doesn't want to do anything bad to me...like punish me or something because of the feed back from reality in getting coupled with the spiritual silence... I cant trust because I'm afraid something bad will happen..
During the whole stressful event of my faith being eroded... I even dreamt of my own death and it felt so real like itd actually happen ( I'm not suicidal and I dont want to die)... So its hard...
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I honestly dont care what anyone says, you cant just read a few scriptures and everything will be fine..no.. I feel the reason we all believe in God is because we all had an experience / encounter with Him that made the book come alive. Same with all the other youtubers I see, the have faith BC God came through for them... Had he not... They wouldn't be sharing any kind of testimony...
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I want to trust God again...but I feel I cant... I dont want to try but I just want my faith back and dont want to assume the worse... I just feel like I'm fading away and its kind of scary..but I'm becoming apathetic, I even resigned myself to just the fact... Idk maybe I'm a pot of destruction to show Gods wrath... I dont know... God just kinda left me to my own devices.
Dont know what to do.
Right... One momentHi Far Side. I will not say I understand what you are going through. I am questing GOD as well. I do not trust him anymore. I don't trust or like most Christians any more either. I do not know the answer for you. You have heard a lot of well meaning people tell you what to do. I am sorry it does not always work. I trust in that there is a way to resole any problem, even one of faith. I will find mine and I pray you will find yours. (one day at a time) some times ( one moment at a time)
Right... One moment
Thanks for being so positive when I couldn't. Ill try bc God is all I have rn... I hate anxiety and depression so much.See the good thing with God's right moments is that they always remain and grow into even better moments.
Each moment you have with God in faith is for forever, only unbelief and doubt can kill such life in dragging us down living dead again, but when faith comes back God's moments are back as well.
When I began to realise that in my struggle with bad life then I knew I was on the winning side trusting God's love unconditionally like He truly loves us all as well.
Try it sis! Each forgiving thought you have against those horrible people who hurt you so bad will open you up more to receive a loving God instead of the cruel loveless one you know now. Please always remember that to find God He has to e born in us. Jesus tell us that doing the will of the Father - to love - will make us His brother, sister and mother - how much better than that can you get?
Now those horrible impostors who brought you so much bad life and so much distortion about God and His Word will have to face God one day about all the pain they brought into your and other peoples lives teaching the word of God they they did.
God does not want any one to get lost, such is the true heart of our Father. I feel like that about my children as well and the children of other dads as well, so I know what a dad's heart longs for when it comes to His kids - so sister please always remember who the True Father is and who the untrue father is - for the True Father raised Jesus from the Dead and so in one sweep too His kids back from the untrue father, as it always should have been in the law of love!
John 3:16-17
Be blessed dear.
Thanks for being so positive when I couldn't. Ill try bc God is all I have rn... I hate anxiety and depression so much.
Hi far side, I have some info that may be helpful to you. I want you to know that the feelings you have I have absolutely been there. I can promise you my life with that. I relate to you so much. I will add you on Facebook. I know it feels like god is being unfair you. And you're right, people tell you to pray and read, which is fine, but that is not going to take what you feel away. I really think God wants you to have raw faith despite everything you are going through. I will give you an article to explain this. Please add me on Facebook. I will pm you my name on Facebook or you can pm me your Facebook link so i can send you the article1) I tried reading and praying...it felt forced and I felt nothing .
2) If everyone were all supposed to be brought low, why wasn't every Christian treated terribly by a pastor ? Or spiritual leader?( that will bring you low real quick andmess up your faith in the process)
3) The youtubers I watch are very sincere...if that's the case I shouldn't be here either... They're also Christians
Okay ill add u and we can talk... Ill try and resurrect my accountHi far side, I have some info that may be helpful to you. I want you to know that the feelings you have I have absolutely been there. I can promise you my life with that. I relate to you so much. I will add you on Facebook. I know it feels like god is being unfair you. And you're right, people tell you to pray and read, which is fine, but that is not going to take what you feel away. I really think God wants you to have raw faith despite everything you are going through. I will give you an article to explain this. Please add me on Facebook. I will pm you my name on Facebook or you can pm me your Facebook link so i can send you the article
Sometimes I regret making alot of the threads I do..because I don't feel this way about god anymore.. However, its okay to be mad,,,and oats even healthier to express it. In your own time I pray you come back to GOd...or trust him,if you haven't left.I am in the same boat. I refused to lie to clients, and was let go from a job I had for over a decade. I am now trying VERY hard to get a new job, with little success. God is NOWHERE to be found, as far as I can tell. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE don't send me Jesus died for your salvation stuff, as I don't doubt my salvation as much as I doubt God cares what happens to me on this earth, even when I have done His EXPRESS WILL to my peril. I can trust someone who is not perfect for not helping me, but God IS perfect, so I can no longer trust Him, and this makes all the rest of my relationship with Him doubtful if not useless. Some will call this blasphemy, but so be it, as it is how things are. I know things can change as time goes on, but as time goes on I can also lose my house, my ability to feed and clothe my family, so the whole "God's timing" thing is irrelevant as far as I am concerned.
Thank you for your reply. Another "wonderful" happening today, and, again, I feel like a nothing as I PLEAD with God for help, and He ignores me as if He wasn't even there, or I wasn't there. Something has to give, and since God is either all powerful, and doesn't HAVE to give, or He is non-existent and he CAN'T give. I don't know which is my belief as of yet, but one of the two HAS to be true of a God as He is described in the Bible. There aren't any other options.Sometimes I regret making alot of the threads I do..because I don't feel this way about god anymore.. However, its okay to be mad,,,and oats even healthier to express it. In your own time I pray you come back to GOd...or trust him,if you haven't left.
Oh, and I should mentioned that I was, again with no rescue or help from God, molested by an adult male REPEATEDLY when I was 12 years old, and this too has affected my life, though not as much as when it happened. How can we humans continue to call on such a god, or call Him good when we see all of this? The Bible (God) blames it one the wickedness of humans. Fair enough, but that it a description, not anything helpful. If a cop walks down the street, sees a woman being beat over the head, and then raped, and he does nothing, but simply says, "wow, people are sure evil in this city! do we praise him or fire him, if not arrest him?!!? mutatis mutandis re:God.
I'm very sorry to hear that happened to you and I totally understand your frustration with God, it's natural and logical. I used the same analogy about the police officer. I think we all just need to admit that we have no idea why God allows bad things because we all know he had the power to stop them but chose not to. I have heard that God uses evil circumstances to grow you in a way that having things perfect couldn't. It still doesn't make sense or justify the pain to me. Ive heard horrific stories of what happened to people. It just doesn't make sense. All I can say is be honest with God and ask him to heal you and get you to a place where you are willing to trust him. Take that trust a day at a time. Be careful who you open up to. Everyone isn't worthy of knowing your deepest hurts. Pray for wisdom on who to open up to. I will pray for you. You are not aloneOh, and I should mentioned that I was, again with no rescue or help from God, molested by an adult male REPEATEDLY when I was 12 years old, and this too has affected my life, though not as much as when it happened. How can we humans continue to call on such a god, or call Him good when we see all of this? The Bible (God) blames it one the wickedness of humans. Fair enough, but that it a description, not anything helpful. If a cop walks down the street, sees a woman being beat over the head, and then raped, and he does nothing, but simply says, "wow, people are sure evil in this city! do we praise him or fire him, if not arrest him?!!? mutatis mutandis re:God.
qThat is my issue... Like, I.. Sometimes I wonder why I keep coming back here because I don't feel like a Christian.... I dont read or pray... But despite what has happened-- I still believe in God ( somehow... I cant get rid of it)
I just want back what I lost, just to simply believe God liked me..and that he was happy with me. I see people on YouTube with awesome testimonies how they're so close knit with God, how God did this and that for them... And I ..i never had that. Idk why but even before the damage ( will get into soon) happen ... I had some experiences with God...mostly dreams..but it was never anything thatd make you go.." That was 100% God" idk alot of Christians make it seem like youre supposed to get an answer to every prayer, or hear clearly from God and be les by his spirit always.. ( also I still never experienced his leading..) so it just made me feel like I was defective or God just didnt like me.
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That's one of the reason's its hard for me to trust God..bc its like he says he wants to be close, talk to you, give you his promises...BUT...it seems everyone else is able to do it but me .... So in that sense I felt like a carrot was being dangled in front of my face.
Now on to the damage..
I'm gonna make this short and bullet point it
▶ Pastor treated me differently , called my mom told her I was a liar and not to believe anything I said. Would rebuke me in front of others, asked if the spirit of Judas was in me, prophesied id be in a shelter..and told me God has mercy on whom he has mercy... And I didnt do anything to warrant that..infact before service...my brothers and I would clean her home ...and i bathed her once when she was ill ...and helped her take her medicine... So I didnt do anything mean or malicious to warrent all that.
▶ Current situation- As I've stated in other threads, I got kicked out of school.. And (gonna back track) when I was in church and what not... I feel like even when I was " blessed" itd be with Jobs I couldn't do... When id hear from someone else the job they'd have is a breeze to get through... And just the whole being in a crampt hotel with my family for 3 years...having set back after set back..
So my faith in God was forcefully eroded.. I cant trust anymore, I have no faith...accept to believe that God is...it is simply impossible for me to believe God doesn't hate me or doesn't want to do anything bad to me...like punish me or something because of the feed back from reality in getting coupled with the spiritual silence... I cant trust because I'm afraid something bad will happen..
During the whole stressful event of my faith being eroded... I even dreamt of my own death and it felt so real like itd actually happen ( I'm not suicidal and I dont want to die)... So its hard...
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I honestly dont care what anyone says, you cant just read a few scriptures and everything will be fine..no.. I feel the reason we all believe in God is because we all had an experience / encounter with Him that made the book come alive. Same with all the other youtubers I see, the have faith BC God came through for them... Had he not... They wouldn't be sharing any kind of testimony...
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I want to trust God again...but I feel I cant... I dont want to try but I just want my faith back and dont want to assume the worse... I just feel like I'm fading away and its kind of scary..but I'm becoming apathetic, I even resigned myself to just the fact... Idk maybe I'm a pot of destruction to show Gods wrath... I dont know... God just kinda left me to my own devices.
Dont know what to do.
riendThat is my issue... Like, I.. Sometimes I wonder why I keep coming back here because I don't feel like a Christian.... I dont read or pray... But despite what has happened-- I still believe in God ( somehow... I cant get rid of it)
I just want back what I lost, just to simply believe God liked me..and that he was happy with me. I see people on YouTube with awesome testimonies how they're so close knit with God, how God did this and that for them... And I ..i never had that. Idk why but even before the damage ( will get into soon) happen ... I had some experiences with God...mostly dreams..but it was never anything thatd make you go.." That was 100% God" idk alot of Christians make it seem like youre supposed to get an answer to every prayer, or hear clearly from God and be les by his spirit always.. ( also I still never experienced his leading..) so it just made me feel like I was defective or God just didnt like me.
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That's one of the reason's its hard for me to trust God..bc its like he says he wants to be close, talk to you, give you his promises...BUT...it seems everyone else is able to do it but me .... So in that sense I felt like a carrot was being dangled in front of my face.
Now on to the damage..
I'm gonna make this short and bullet point it
▶ Pastor treated me differently , called my mom told her I was a liar and not to believe anything I said. Would rebuke me in front of others, asked if the spirit of Judas was in me, prophesied id be in a shelter..and told me God has mercy on whom he has mercy... And I didnt do anything to warrant that..infact before service...my brothers and I would clean her home ...and i bathed her once when she was ill ...and helped her take her medicine... So I didnt do anything mean or malicious to warrent all that.
▶ Current situation- As I've stated in other threads, I got kicked out of school.. And (gonna back track) when I was in church and what not... I feel like even when I was " blessed" itd be with Jobs I couldn't do... When id hear from someone else the job they'd have is a breeze to get through... And just the whole being in a crampt hotel with my family for 3 years...having set back after set back..
So my faith in God was forcefully eroded.. I cant trust anymore, I have no faith...accept to believe that God is...it is simply impossible for me to believe God doesn't hate me or doesn't want to do anything bad to me...like punish me or something because of the feed back from reality in getting coupled with the spiritual silence... I cant trust because I'm afraid something bad will happen..
During the whole stressful event of my faith being eroded... I even dreamt of my own death and it felt so real like itd actually happen ( I'm not suicidal and I dont want to die)... So its hard...
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I honestly dont care what anyone says, you cant just read a few scriptures and everything will be fine..no.. I feel the reason we all believe in God is because we all had an experience / encounter with Him that made the book come alive. Same with all the other youtubers I see, the have faith BC God came through for them... Had he not... They wouldn't be sharing any kind of testimony...
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I want to trust God again...but I feel I cant... I dont want to try but I just want my faith back and dont want to assume the worse... I just feel like I'm fading away and its kind of scary..but I'm becoming apathetic, I even resigned myself to just the fact... Idk maybe I'm a pot of destruction to show Gods wrath... I dont know... God just kinda left me to my own devices.
Dont know what to do.
You lost faith on God because you got kicked out of school? Jesus.
I had to shower at minus -25°C degrees celsius a few days ago and I was pouring cold water over my body, while freezing to death. I washed my dishes with ice cold water for a week and my hands were destroyed, all blooded an slashed. And you think yours is a suffering?
My mother is in mental hospital, my father left me when I was little, should I go on? I can go on forever, you know.
Just think of it as a test. And until now, you're failing it. You fail everything that you believed in. And if by being successful you mean trying to be better than a bunch of YouTube losers serving the devil, who are not producing anything than a prank or two or some pointless tutorial, your goals in life are wrong and you have more to endure and suffer until you finally go on the right path.
Stop wanting more, stop wanting what people have, because for God it is right for whatever you do, to work heartily, as for him and not for men.
Galatians 1:10
Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.