I don't know why I'm here. Just in the recent months, and weeks I've been losing faith in God and religion and everything.
I don't know what I did to deserve such a horrible life. I swear I feel like I've been cursed and someone put a mark on me for me to continue to have a string of tragic events that just lead me to nowhere. Maybe I did something wrong to somebody in a past life and I am paying for it now. I don't know
For the past 3/4 years my life has been going downhill steadily, losing jobs, friends, car breaks down, debt, it just will not stop. I didn't get accepted into nursing school which is just even more awful. My father tells me I am useless and pathetic.
I don't know why my life is like this, I swear I put just as much effort to succeed and it just won't happen for me. My dad compares me to a younger cousin who has her own apartment and works at the hospital (I have been trying to get into a hospital for years).
Just when I am almost there something happens that puts me like 5 steps backwards. I really don't know what to do. I have such anxeity and I am not looking forward to my bday this year. I keep telling myself that with each year I get younger
I even thought about suicide, I have absolutely nothing. My mother even reminds me of how pathetic my life is getting too. I just don't have anything. I don't understand why. I am so sad that I don't even know what more to say
I don't know what I did to deserve such a horrible life. I swear I feel like I've been cursed and someone put a mark on me for me to continue to have a string of tragic events that just lead me to nowhere. Maybe I did something wrong to somebody in a past life and I am paying for it now. I don't know
For the past 3/4 years my life has been going downhill steadily, losing jobs, friends, car breaks down, debt, it just will not stop. I didn't get accepted into nursing school which is just even more awful. My father tells me I am useless and pathetic.
I don't know why my life is like this, I swear I put just as much effort to succeed and it just won't happen for me. My dad compares me to a younger cousin who has her own apartment and works at the hospital (I have been trying to get into a hospital for years).
Just when I am almost there something happens that puts me like 5 steps backwards. I really don't know what to do. I have such anxeity and I am not looking forward to my bday this year. I keep telling myself that with each year I get younger
I even thought about suicide, I have absolutely nothing. My mother even reminds me of how pathetic my life is getting too. I just don't have anything. I don't understand why. I am so sad that I don't even know what more to say