Hi all.
It's been a long time since I've been active on here. Unfortunately, I'm not doing well.
I think God has been very angry and disappointed with me lately. I'm not surprised in the slightest.
I've fell back into numerous sins, and to be honest, it's gotten to the point where I'm aware but I have no motivation to repent. I haven't read the Bible in a long time. I have no motivation to. When I pray, I don't know if I mean it anymore or not. I haven't prayed in a while. I've had terrible nightmares for a week straight. I hate sleeping now. Food and video games and tv takes the pain of existence away temporarily. People are saying Bible "end of world prophecies" are coming true now and I'm not ready for that. Maybe this is one of those phases people go through, the rebellious phase. But I know that I could die at any moment and end up in Hell FOREVER. NO ESCAPE. I want to go back to God but I can't. He is so so disappointed in me and I let Him doen severely. I wake up in fear everyday for some reason. I hope He sees me struggling man. I'm struggling to be myself, I don't even know who I am.
I don't know if I'm agnostic or not, I may be, but I hate my existence.
It's been a long time since I've been active on here. Unfortunately, I'm not doing well.
I think God has been very angry and disappointed with me lately. I'm not surprised in the slightest.
I've fell back into numerous sins, and to be honest, it's gotten to the point where I'm aware but I have no motivation to repent. I haven't read the Bible in a long time. I have no motivation to. When I pray, I don't know if I mean it anymore or not. I haven't prayed in a while. I've had terrible nightmares for a week straight. I hate sleeping now. Food and video games and tv takes the pain of existence away temporarily. People are saying Bible "end of world prophecies" are coming true now and I'm not ready for that. Maybe this is one of those phases people go through, the rebellious phase. But I know that I could die at any moment and end up in Hell FOREVER. NO ESCAPE. I want to go back to God but I can't. He is so so disappointed in me and I let Him doen severely. I wake up in fear everyday for some reason. I hope He sees me struggling man. I'm struggling to be myself, I don't even know who I am.
I don't know if I'm agnostic or not, I may be, but I hate my existence.