Ok i'm new here...i hope it's ok to post this here?
This year will be three years since our divorce. We were married for almost 18 years since we were teenagers. We have three teenagers and we coparent really well together.
He was my best friend and my biggest supporter. We went through a lot dealing with abuse from my past, dealing with that stuff and he was always by my side.
Eventually, i went "crazy" from all the stuff i was dealing with. My PTSD was too much and i "ran away". Not that i completely left and had nothing to do with him or our kids. They mean everything to me. But i stopped trying. I started spiraling downhill fast and i made a lot of mistakes that are hard to come back from.
I will always love him and he's still always there for me, but he wants and needs peace now. He tried so hard to keep us together and i stopped believing in us...in God...in everything for a while.
Now, i feel stuck. I don't know where i'm supposed to be or what God's plan is for my life. I feel like i messed that all up and i don't even know where to go from here.
This year will be three years since our divorce. We were married for almost 18 years since we were teenagers. We have three teenagers and we coparent really well together.
He was my best friend and my biggest supporter. We went through a lot dealing with abuse from my past, dealing with that stuff and he was always by my side.
Eventually, i went "crazy" from all the stuff i was dealing with. My PTSD was too much and i "ran away". Not that i completely left and had nothing to do with him or our kids. They mean everything to me. But i stopped trying. I started spiraling downhill fast and i made a lot of mistakes that are hard to come back from.
I will always love him and he's still always there for me, but he wants and needs peace now. He tried so hard to keep us together and i stopped believing in us...in God...in everything for a while.
Now, i feel stuck. I don't know where i'm supposed to be or what God's plan is for my life. I feel like i messed that all up and i don't even know where to go from here.