I disproved God simply by not getting help when needed, don`t get me wrong, I know many people pray and things, but this was a honest and deeply feeling in my heart that I should have gotten help wih them
Did you not get help with them? Did you contract any illnesses, did you watch anyone commit suicide, were there any major fights among the refugees, did none of them have any hope?
We must remember, no matter what religious views we have, that things that look bad could be so much worse, and we must thank God for preserving us from the worst that easily could happen. People may point to the World Wars, and say, "Why didn't God preserve peace?" But really, we should point to WWIII & the nuclear holocaust, and say, "Look what He kept us from! Rejoice!".
And God has protected us from some of the worst atrocities. I've attached a link to some famous miracles of the Rosary that remain unexplained by any other means, such as Jesuit priests being protected from the nuclear bombing of Japan, dictatorships being suddenly ended, and Ted Bundy being unable to kill a woman holding a Rosary.
Miraculous Rosary: FAMOUS ROSARY MIRACLES
What if God protected us from all wars, but still allowed mass shootings? Many would point to the mass shootings and say, "There isn't a god; god would've stopped that", but we can't see most things that didn't happen. Think of the modern North Korea; a deranged madman with a nuclear arsenal with nothing to lose & a lot to gain (in his eyes), has already test-fired nukes into the Sea of Japan, has the backing of 2 of the most powerful countries in Asia (and surely Middle East connections), and he does...nothing? Point to the crimes against humanity in his own country, and you can say there's no god; point to what he hasn't done to other countries, and we can say that God truly is shielding us.
The point is, if you start looking for the good things that emerge from tragedies, you will very strongly see the presence of God. I've learned this from getting into Forensic classes at college, and from a close friend who's worked in undercover operations to Thailand to break up human trafficking; in these situations, you see the worst of humanity, but you also see the very best. Wars in the Middle East force thousands to millions out of their countries, but much of the world unites around them with support, people like yourself going out to support people in need. A close friend of mine was almost raped, but had overwhelming support from her friends, and discovered how much so many people really care about her. I almost committed suicide after my girlfriend dumped me, but that terrifying night turned out to be a pivotal point in my life to bring an unfathomable amount of blessings to me, and I can't believe how well off I'm doing because of that incident.
Just take some time to think about it, and see what you find. Pray about it, too; if God really does exist, He'll lead you to the truth. If he doesn't, than what have you lost?