Hey Everyone,
I am looking for Christian advice here from my Christian brothers and sister, I’ve been praying about this, I’ve been studying my situation, the Lord has shown me the truth. I feel I have no realized I am in a devil’s trap and every direction I turn there is no way out, I am locked in. They got me good.
So, I was desperate for a job with benefits and a new career in early 2020. My father-in-law got a new job with an "old boss" of his working for a copier company. (I honestly had no idea who this guy was, I had no sales experience but something was tempting me to go into it). “it’s a good career” “commissions are great” “Sales is a good gig” “You could do well, we want you on the team” I was told by a lot of people and by his boss.
So, after I had the interview and something wasn’t right. I couldn’t pin it. My gut told me “Do not take this job, I swear to do, you do not want to do this”. The same intuition that tells me to “yes marry this girl make her your wife”, “break up with this girlfriend” “Don’t go to this college”, just this gut-wrenching heart pounding feeling. Desperate, I decided to ignore it this time and take the job.
Well, the pandemic hit and they moved me to a supply role for a little bit working remote. My wife luckily got a retail job and tutors so she is out all the time. Once we moved into our new apartment, I realized I was all alone. I am literally home alone, cold calling every day. At night she works and I am alone. I am home alone trapped to my own devices (Drinking, video games, inappropriate content, weed) in a field I find toxic and manipulative. It's got me so depressed being away from all my family and friends, in a new state where I don't know anyone so I turned to substances.
Our boss called me up and said we are moving you over to the sales side in august, we will teach you, get you a mentor, etc. Then a week later he called me up and said I was moving over tomorrow. He pretty much coerced me into the job when I hesitated. “Well, I don’t see a need for you. I’ll contact HR to terminate your contract”. So I am still working from home alone, or I drive 50 miles just to meet with a customer.
I’ve applied to several jobs I am qualified for but they all are in limbo “Our new director will make that decision” “It’s still being processed”, “We decided to budget cut and we don’t know if it’s needed” every excuse in the book, every door closed. I can't even become a teacher aid, I was turned down and I was a certified school teacher for 3 years.
After praying and allowing the Holy Spirit to speak to me, God has now shown me I am completely locked in. I am home alone to my own demons and vices, in a toxic industry that serves money, cold calling all day, forcing me to travel, my blood pressure is actually very high because of it. They don’t care if you have a disability or are a hard worker, they want you to make them money. IE they got me a pen for my one year anniversary at the company, at least in teaching the poor teachers could afford a $50 gift card and a handwritten note and cake. Not here.
So, God has shown me that I realize I am in the trap and I know the enemy is going to use my family, co-workers, friends to convince me to stay. “What will you do if you get sick?” “You can’t get a job at publix, you’re 30.” “You need a career, you cant work job to job” “How will you afford rent” “You can’t just quit, what will the next employer say?” etc etc etc.
Any advice, prayers, and recommendations is helpful. How do I escape this?
Thank you,
I am looking for Christian advice here from my Christian brothers and sister, I’ve been praying about this, I’ve been studying my situation, the Lord has shown me the truth. I feel I have no realized I am in a devil’s trap and every direction I turn there is no way out, I am locked in. They got me good.
So, I was desperate for a job with benefits and a new career in early 2020. My father-in-law got a new job with an "old boss" of his working for a copier company. (I honestly had no idea who this guy was, I had no sales experience but something was tempting me to go into it). “it’s a good career” “commissions are great” “Sales is a good gig” “You could do well, we want you on the team” I was told by a lot of people and by his boss.
So, after I had the interview and something wasn’t right. I couldn’t pin it. My gut told me “Do not take this job, I swear to do, you do not want to do this”. The same intuition that tells me to “yes marry this girl make her your wife”, “break up with this girlfriend” “Don’t go to this college”, just this gut-wrenching heart pounding feeling. Desperate, I decided to ignore it this time and take the job.
Well, the pandemic hit and they moved me to a supply role for a little bit working remote. My wife luckily got a retail job and tutors so she is out all the time. Once we moved into our new apartment, I realized I was all alone. I am literally home alone, cold calling every day. At night she works and I am alone. I am home alone trapped to my own devices (Drinking, video games, inappropriate content, weed) in a field I find toxic and manipulative. It's got me so depressed being away from all my family and friends, in a new state where I don't know anyone so I turned to substances.
Our boss called me up and said we are moving you over to the sales side in august, we will teach you, get you a mentor, etc. Then a week later he called me up and said I was moving over tomorrow. He pretty much coerced me into the job when I hesitated. “Well, I don’t see a need for you. I’ll contact HR to terminate your contract”. So I am still working from home alone, or I drive 50 miles just to meet with a customer.
I’ve applied to several jobs I am qualified for but they all are in limbo “Our new director will make that decision” “It’s still being processed”, “We decided to budget cut and we don’t know if it’s needed” every excuse in the book, every door closed. I can't even become a teacher aid, I was turned down and I was a certified school teacher for 3 years.
After praying and allowing the Holy Spirit to speak to me, God has now shown me I am completely locked in. I am home alone to my own demons and vices, in a toxic industry that serves money, cold calling all day, forcing me to travel, my blood pressure is actually very high because of it. They don’t care if you have a disability or are a hard worker, they want you to make them money. IE they got me a pen for my one year anniversary at the company, at least in teaching the poor teachers could afford a $50 gift card and a handwritten note and cake. Not here.
So, God has shown me that I realize I am in the trap and I know the enemy is going to use my family, co-workers, friends to convince me to stay. “What will you do if you get sick?” “You can’t get a job at publix, you’re 30.” “You need a career, you cant work job to job” “How will you afford rent” “You can’t just quit, what will the next employer say?” etc etc etc.
Any advice, prayers, and recommendations is helpful. How do I escape this?
Thank you,
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