*hugs* Father please draw Amie all close to You and supply for her, carry her thru and out of this and please let her know, see... how much You love her. Please make everything work out great & awesome for her, You alone know what's the totally best for her, please do this. Please help her totally trust You, rely on You and love You & people. Please fill her heart with Your love, peace & joy again and comfort her. In Jesus' name. Amen
mhhhh I've been confused & all in the past & things were just going...um I dunno lower than I thought & just stuff I didn't imagine to happen sometimes...
I was feeling pressed & all..got a weird pic of God, got um kinda 'hateful' (wow thats sounding so harsh to me..) (mostly to myself but my thoughts were just ..bad..shouted at my family.. stuff like that.)
& it went for like longer than it used to before & dunno really but it felt so different & bad & I was just asking God for help (I mean I did before) & was gonna get online to maybe talk to someone/ask for help whatever.
well I don't remember exactly how things went but I read some cool devotions
(like this one
:
http://www.christianforums.com/threads/32921.html)
..didn't completely 'break the ice' I think.....then I just read something that totally touched me made me cry just one lil sentence & an old reply I wrote to someone.
I know what you mean about the unanswered questions....
but God's sooooo cool
I got down 'bout some of that stuff like how does he actually want me to live, how does life work, what is he like, how is this stuff in the bible actually meant... I remembered this verse in James 1/5 (2-5 is pretty encouraging aswell
)
that God will give you wisdom when you need it & ask for it.
but then I got a 'lil bit' down again like he wouldn't for some weird I'm-not-worth-it/too-bad-whatever-like reason & was just like please God umm like show me how this works, please answer me.
I just opened a devotion-book at any page and got psalm 32/8 like I want to show you how to live...I will advise you..I never loose sight of You & the last part got me a bit of an understanding 'bout my questions aswell I think.....
wow !! then some time ago I read Job like cool. so He got these questions ..could kinda identify but God actually doesn't really explain them to him I think.
What I got out of this is that God might not come up to me and tell me exactly what's the matter about every question I have but He's the same perfect God who created the world, knows everything and is love & I can just trust Him on everything.
God Bless you sista don't give up relying on God & placing stuff in his hands
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