Awww, if the love is real then it will conquer everything that stands against it.
I would say to you what I have been thinking all along: you need to put God first in your life. If you think you need baptism, be baptized. If you think Jesus has told her not to marry you, then respect that. What you are pursuing with this lady is some sort of gratification from her presence, that means you love the way her being makes your brain behave. Take yours and her bodies out of the picture and you are both just disciples of Jesus, spirit with no sex, equal in status and being, with nothing but brotherly love for one another, and no longer married to each other but married to Jesus. This is why you must put Jesus first, and if she is a mature Christian then she would be mindful of that ultimate reality. Have a meditation on this verse, it may help put your head in a space that would give her more confidence:
Romans 8:13
13 For if you live according to the flesh you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live.
I want to pray with you, and I hope you can agree with what I say:
Dear Heavenly Father, we pray to you about this lady that blackwolf loves so much, how his heart is being torn and tossed around by uncertainty and desire. Lord, we know that marriage is a serious commitment not to be taken lightly, we thank you for the wisdom you have bestowed upon him and her, and we pray for your wisdom to continue to be upon them even as they go forth from here. Father we pray with a desire for true love to conquer and overcome that which opposes it, we know that you have the power to action such a request, and we pray that you will make your will clear to both of these people as they pursue their relationship with each other. Help them to put you first in their life, and in doing so, to serve each other. We pray for patience, as blackwolf has a lot of interest in this lady, we ask that you would minister to him, help him to mature in your spirit. He is 20 years rusty on Christianity, we pray for a rapid enlightenment process to remind him of the truth you have revealed to us. We pray for the people who are engaged in advising blackwolf and his friend, that you will bestow wisdom upon them, and we pray for your divine guidance upon both these people as they come to an agreement of how to go forth. Above all Lord, we pray that the result of this process will bring glory to your name. As we are commanded not to worry about anything of this world, but to concentrate on building your kingdom and all we need will be provided. We pray that the unity between these two people will be such that they will grow toward you together, helping each other to grow and supporting each other through thick and thin. Lord we pray for unity in their relationship and not division. Father we are aware of how much turmoil is happening in blackwolf's mind as he faces the ultimate reality of whether he is graced with this lady's presence for every day of his life, and we ask that you will stir up your spirit within his heart that he will come to love the ability to depend on you for all things he needs. We pray all these requests sincerely in the name of your son Jesus, who suffered and went to great lengths so we could have the right to approach you in confidence knowing that our requests are heard. Father we thank you for that privilege, Lord there is nothing more important we could ask for than what you have freely given, we ask you to make that ever more real to blackwolf. Thank you Lord and Father, amen.
blackwolf, don't be despaired, Jesus knows how to put your life together, He knows all the pieces of the puzzle and you just need to trust Him and concentrate on growing your understanding of His wisdom and nature so that when people look at you they see the glory of Jesus radiating from you, and you will see Jesus in the face of everyone around you. Then you will be able to marry anyone He brings to you
Life will be good soon enough and you will be able to post smiley faces all day
Just put Jesus first and He will do the rest.