- Jun 19, 2016
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- Country
- United Kingdom
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
i would prefer to like women my own age but god does not grant this wish of mine even though I ask him for 3 years.
Instead I am depressed as I've no friends or people who care about me and no girl like me.
I stopped being attracted to women 3 year ago (I 19 now) and now my life is bad since. I get sad every time I appreciate a good looking person who isn't a woman my age. I don't think I'm gay but I have fear of it because others think I am.
Also I have a little cousin of different nationality to me who is 12. I think she is cute with her mannerisms and and Spanish accent. Why can't god let me have a cute Spanish/French wife my own age who is like my cousin but not my cousin for obvious reason. My cousin is kind and endearing but I need friends my own age as I have none. Even my dad make fun of me for having no friends and called me ugly.
Instead I am depressed as I've no friends or people who care about me and no girl like me.
I stopped being attracted to women 3 year ago (I 19 now) and now my life is bad since. I get sad every time I appreciate a good looking person who isn't a woman my age. I don't think I'm gay but I have fear of it because others think I am.
Also I have a little cousin of different nationality to me who is 12. I think she is cute with her mannerisms and and Spanish accent. Why can't god let me have a cute Spanish/French wife my own age who is like my cousin but not my cousin for obvious reason. My cousin is kind and endearing but I need friends my own age as I have none. Even my dad make fun of me for having no friends and called me ugly.