I am back...after a long spell

[rtodd5011]

A lot of changes have happened with this forum. It looks nice. Its been over a year since I have been here and posted. I finally made a friend, and just in the last several months slowly lost that friendship. It would have been a year in August that we would have been friends. He has bipolar. Its just sad how it ended. It is a long story but he helped me get out of the house and we worked on projects at his house. Until a old friend from his past showed up and I got jealous. It all went downhill from there. I felt like the odd man out. and I distanced myself and isolated back into my house. some people are glad that he is gone because they said he was using me. THey dont realize how much i needed that friendship. My wife did NOT like him. and was jealous. That didnt help matters one bit. He just stopped calling and talking to me and wanting to hang out with me. I guess I dont blame him...


I am back in the house now with noone to hangout with. I am making myself walk in the mornings so that I dont sleep all day. For those of you that do not know my story, my name is Richard and I have had schizophrenia since I was 23 years old. It has been a nightmare, I would get better and then I would relapses. It has been a uphill battle, and I am tired, I am Just get so tired of fighting demons getting in my face. They are all liars and I tell them that too. I just looked for a place to chat then thought of this place, just to get any type of feedback would be encouragement

 

[DeerGlow]

A lot of changes have happened with this forum. It looks nice. Its been over a year since I have been here and posted. I finally made a friend, and just in the last several months slowly lost that friendship. It would have been a year in August that we would have been friends. He has bipolar. Its just sad how it ended. It is a long story but he helped me get out of the house and we worked on projects at his house. Until a old friend from his past showed up and I got jealous. It all went downhill from there. I felt like the odd man out. and I distanced myself and isolated back into my house. some people are glad that he is gone because they said he was using me. THey dont realize how much i needed that friendship. My wife did NOT like him. and was jealous. That didnt help matters one bit. He just stopped calling and talking to me and wanting to hang out with me. I guess I dont blame him...


I am back in the house now with noone to hangout with. I am making myself walk in the mornings so that I dont sleep all day. For those of you that do not know my story, my name is Richard and I have had schizophrenia since I was 23 years old. It has been a nightmare, I would get better and then I would relapses. It has been a uphill battle, and I am tired, I am Just get so tired of fighting demons getting in my face. They are all liars and I tell them that too. I just looked for a place to chat then thought of this place, just to get any type of feedback would be encouragement

Welcome back! I joined last October, and like my title, I gotta recommend the chat box. Very pleasant conversations in there.

 

[Hidden In Him]

Just get so tired of fighting demons getting in my face. They are all liars and I tell them that too. I just looked for a place to chat then thought of this place, just to get any type of feedback would be encouragement

I agree. They are all liars. Keep fighting.

Glad you returned, and hope you make some new friends in Christ.