Recently I’m going through a crisis in life regarding my relationship. At the moment I’m taking a break in a relationship which I want to reconcile but I don’t know if it’s God’s will. I feel like I’ve haven't been happy for so long. I’m starting to get tired and used to the fact of being unhappy. In times I would come together with my friend and pray before sleeping which is fine. However when I pray alone at night that’s when the issue raises. I end up crying and getting scared during my prayer. Because of crying and feeling fearful, it kind of put me off to continue with the prayer so I will try to end the prayer quickly. I used to pray for restoration for this relationship but now I’m lost. Instead I leave it up to God‘s decision and follow his will. The problem is that I get very emotional and scared while praying. It almost feels like I don’t feel protected while telling God how I feel. I’m trying my hardest to trust God but it’s hard when i’m feeling this way while I pray.
Why am I like this?
Grace be with you, mercy, and peace, from God the Father, and from the Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of the Father, in truth and love.
Matthew 6:6-15 KJV
But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly. [7] But when ye pray, use not vain repetitions, as the heathen do : for they think that they shall be heard for their much speaking. [8] Be not ye therefore like unto them: for your Father knoweth what things ye have need of, before ye ask him. [9] After this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name. [10] Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven. [11] Give us this day our daily bread. [12] And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. [13] And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen. [14] For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you: [15] But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
Matthew 18:19-20 KJV
Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven. [20] For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.
I said a prayer for you, I hope the Lord will be merciful, and graceful to you.