Long story short. I’ve struggled with inappropriate content addicting for about 7 years now. I thought I broke free awhile back. Right after I told my girlfriend about the struggle. I thought I would never do it again. But I did. I did it once. I told her about it and it crushed her. She said she wasn’t sure if she wanted to continue the relationship and she took several days away from me. But she decided to continue things. Shortly after that, I did it again. And then again. And have been doing it regularly for like 2 months now and it will seriously crush her to know this. And I’m seriously scared right now. I think I need to tell her but I am so scared. And I don’t know how to stop this. It’s controlled me for 7 years now. I really love her so much. I’m not sure I can survive hurting her like this. I don’t know what to do. I feel so miserable right now.
My dear brother you are fighting this in your own strength that will get you nowhere!
Please go to Jesus while you are in the need for inappropriate content, not before, or after, but during the time you burn hot for sex and share everything with Jesus and confess the bottom of your heart to Him. Leave nothing out, nothing at all.
After you have given Him all your need for inappropriate content ask Him to forgive you and repent of being like that from the heart because you know it is evil. Accept His grace and take in His love. Let His graceful love cleanse you from your sin. The more love of Jesus you internalise the more you will break free from the need for inappropriate content in lust.
You need to master this in Jesus for without him you will not succeed.
Grace is the way of love, fear, guilt and shame is the road of the devil. You got got reason to be scared though in that spirituality that needs inappropriate content in you, for as things stand you are committing adultery before you are even married, how can your girlfriend trust you to look after her well, when you will bring inappropriate content into the relationship?
So yes do go to Christ and be set free from your fear, guilt and shame as well as your need for inappropriate content. He is faithful He will set you free if you let Him. Fighting against sin with His love is a sure victory rather than a hot fire which you always loose in the end.
Be warned inappropriate content will destroy every faithfully God fearing relationship that is why lust needs to go and its mate inappropriate content along with him.
Be of good courage with Jesus you can win the battle.