if it is not proper, then just remove this post, but, as it was very hard for me, to get Holy Spirit baptism, I talked about it with Father later.
So maybe story or Father given hints help you?
I copy-paste it here, it's from my old blog, i deleted.
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I wanted it so badly.
I met 2 famous pastors to get it - nothing.
I asked Jesus to baptism me almost every day - nothing.
I asked my pastor to help me - nothing.
I did lost hope and thought - its not for me.
Then i went to my friend to pray.
There were others with us. And i saw vision.
I saw Jesus standing over me, with lifted hands, in clouds, all white and smiling.
I told about that vision to my friend and she told me - time to get baptism with Holy Spirit and fire!
I wasn't sure, that vision was about it, i didn't believe, it ever will happen to me, but she convinced me to ask it and others start to pray.
We did pray for long time - nothing.
I told my friend - enough! its just not for me.
She laughed and told me - its for everyone. Do this - say "Thank You, Jesus!" like you already got it.
I did it.
Long time.
Nothing.
Then i lost my last hope and wanted to say - stop! ...But something happened with my tongue.
I couldn't say anything in my language. My tongue moved and weird words came out - names from Bible and something more.
I closed my mouth with hands and looked at my friend. I was scared, and happy...She laughed again, with tears in her eyes and told me - don't stop, get used to it!
Later i asked Father - why it was so hard to get that gift?
And He told me - until you peek around, wondering what is going on, what you feel, thinking - how it will happen or about stories, how it was with others and do you feel the same... until yours mind get you 1001 thought per second, you cant accept it.
Just that moment, second, you wont wonder, just that second you stop control yourself, Jesus will baptize you.
Its all about faith - faith don't wonder, peek around or try to feel, faith believes.
So if you tried to get baptism with Holy Spirit and fire and failed (i did try to get it a year), next time you ask - just repeat "Thank You, Jesus!" until yours mind get tired to "peek around, wondering and asking 1001 questions per second".
When it happens, yours mind don't control you anymore with "rationality" - you will get it. Because Jesus wants to give it to you.
John 3:5 Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God.
Mark 16 - 17 And these signs will accompany those who believe: in my name they will cast out demons; they will speak in new tongues;
Act 2 - 2 When the day of Pentecost arrived, they were all together in one place. 2 And suddenly there came from heaven a sound like a mighty rushing wind, and it filled the entire house where they were sitting. 3 And divided tongues as of fire appeared to them and rested[a] on each one of them. 4 And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues as the Spirit gave them utterance.