I've watched a few near death experiences and also have had numerous spiritual experiences. I am looking for advice on how to stay patient. Maybe I must stay here for my family's sake. Lord knows if my suicide attempt months ago to be with the lord was successful my family would be devastated because they love me so much. Sigh I remember paul had a tough decision between dying and living for the ministry of Christ. It is really hard when you've had heavenly experiences and life seems so boring and dull compared to what happens in the next life. I am going to stick it out though this time and trust God I come home when it's his will not mine.