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There are two ways in which have been suggested to me by people claiming to represent God on how to come back to him and its really a chicken and egg scenario. The first is the Calvinist fire and brimstone "repent of your sins or God will kill you," one that frightens me greatly. Basically the idea is that I manually stop doing my sins and God gives me back his Holy Spirit so I can have a new heart. The other is the Baptist manner in which I cannot hope to repent of my sins without the Holy Spirit and that God will change me and give me a new heart if I come to him with a contrite heart. Needless to say, neither has worked. When I try to repent of my sins, I find that in fact I feel even less close to God than when I sin. I give up and run go on an expletive filled tirade against God. When I ask God to give me a new heart, nothing happens with the same awful results. .
Hi aspie3000,
You've been given a lot of good answers here. Everyone has a piece of the puzzle, and together it paints an accurate picture. I'd like to add my own perspective.
Whenever I see myself or others stuck in a quandary like the one you describe, I immediately conclude that the flesh is ascendant. The flesh polarizes the mind into two unworkable viewpoints, neither of which has any ability to carry a person forward spiritually. "The carnal mind cannot receive the things of God, because it is at enmity with God", Paul writes in 1 Corinthians. And that is what man's doctrines boil down to. Properly understood, they are helpful attempts to state and understand spiritual reality. But to the soul that cannot see how they tie into the whole, they can be distracting, deceiving and exhausting. I think that is what has happened to you. It is a manifestation of the devil's trap Paul speaks of.
When Christ walked the earth He did not preach Calvinism or the Baptist faith. He preached Himself (relationship) and His soon-to-be-completed work (faith). I'm not saying there isn't truth or value in those systems - there is. But it is always a mistake to put any human system ahead of the redemptive workings of God.
Listen, I am a man with a bitterness toward God for many things, the way I have suffered in this life,..
My sins are horrible,..
I don't even know what real Christianity is anymore. Are we saved by grace through faith apart from our works, or can we damn ourselves by willfully sinning after receiving the knowledge of truth? ...
And you know who's not being helpful whatsoever? God himself. God hasn't spoke to me in a year even whne I try to get an answer from him about very important questions. What is true Christianity, how do I come back to you. Eventually it ends the same way, God says nothing though it is completely within his power to help me and I rage at him. I don't understand why God doesn't value me enough to get me out of this.
At at least one point, and maybe more, Jesus took an innocent child, and standing him or her before the disciples, told them that in order to enter the kingdom of God, they would have to become like him or her. The Bible is written to be discerned by the heart, not the head. The mind can be a wonderful tool to understanding and applying the Word, but it also can be corrupted by the world, and have the ability to obscure, and even distort the Word of God horribly. History is full of this horrendous dynamic and its terrible fruit.
This is why Paul says "faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word" (Rom 10). He doesn't say faith comes directly from the written Word. We read the logos, the written Word, and the rhema, or spoken Word of God, is latent in it. When our hearts "hear" the spoken Word, faith is born anew. This is why some can read the Bible for years and get nothing out of it except head knowledge. Their hearts are not hearing the Spirit working in the Word.
I'm not trying to minimize the horribleness of sin. Sin is what drove Christ to the cross, due to His love for us. But all your sins are of no account compared to the power in the precious Blood. "God was in Christ, reconciling the world to Himself, not imputing their sins against them". -2Cor 5. Christ brushed aside our sins and came proactively, and He will still do the same for you.
But there is something you have to do, to prepare the way of the Lord. You will have to surrender. Stop feeling sorry for yourself. You have not suffered as much as Christ. Stop exalting the power of your sin over His ability to save. Stop the bitterness and stop the doubting and confusion. Stop looking primarily for mental answers. It's all self-focused and worthless. You will need to come as a simple child.
Pray a prayer of faith, surrender and consecration. Say, "I will serve you as I am, to the best of my ability, because You are worthy. And I will trust you to lead me the way I need to go." Listen to God and His Word first, and not the confusing doctrines of man. If there is something you do not understand in the Word, like the Hebrews passages, put them on the shelf and stop misinterpreting them, and instead place trust in God that He will show you what you need to know when you are ready.
Walk in the simplicity that is in Christ, and put your mind at rest in Him. See the gentle invitation He extends at Matthew 11:28-30. Read Philippians, the book of Christian psychology, for an attitude change. Read Romans 4-8, and esp. 6.14, for God's answer to sin, and for who you now are in Him. Read it all prayerfully, devotionally, with a view to feeding the heart.
In his speech at Athens, Paul tells his hearers that "the unknown God" is indeed not far from them, though they are unaware, because in Him we all "live, and move, and have our being". God is not silent, but it is necessary to approach Him the right way. His promise is to reveal Himself every time we seek Him with all our hearts (Jer 29.11). He will do so for you, but you must lay down your strivings, and come to Him with the beginnings of childlike faith.
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