Hello.
So, I've been a lesbian since I was born, I've never liked a guy in my whole life. I just hate guys, and have always hated them. The only reason I want to have a boyfriend is to break his "heart", to leave him depressed. Only thinking about it makes my heart race because of happiness.
The attraction to girls has always come so easily to me, as I've always thought of myself as a guy. When I fall in love with a girl I must always remind myself that I'm actually a girl. But i'm not transsexual, i feel 100% a female, i can't even imagine myself being in a male body, i would be so ugly and unattractive. The only advantage of being a guy would be that i could like girls without it being a sin.
It is just not fair! I, as a girl, i am supposed to like those unnatractive and ugly creatures called guys, while guys can be attracted to any girl they want. Why is it wrong that i want a healthy relationship with a girl?! I think girls are beautiful, soft, hot etc.
Sorry if i was too tough, i really don't wanna offend anyone. But i just can't understand why i am supposed to like guys...
I know homosexuality is a sin, i don't want to be a lesbian anymore but i also don't want to like guys because i feel they are not for me. I don't want to, but God wants me to like guys, not girls, so i should stop checking out girls and thinking about being in a relationship with them.
Please help me, how can I do it? It's so hard to me, it's a really hard decision.
Thanks.
So, I've been a lesbian since I was born, I've never liked a guy in my whole life. I just hate guys, and have always hated them. The only reason I want to have a boyfriend is to break his "heart", to leave him depressed. Only thinking about it makes my heart race because of happiness.
The attraction to girls has always come so easily to me, as I've always thought of myself as a guy. When I fall in love with a girl I must always remind myself that I'm actually a girl. But i'm not transsexual, i feel 100% a female, i can't even imagine myself being in a male body, i would be so ugly and unattractive. The only advantage of being a guy would be that i could like girls without it being a sin.
It is just not fair! I, as a girl, i am supposed to like those unnatractive and ugly creatures called guys, while guys can be attracted to any girl they want. Why is it wrong that i want a healthy relationship with a girl?! I think girls are beautiful, soft, hot etc.
Sorry if i was too tough, i really don't wanna offend anyone. But i just can't understand why i am supposed to like guys...
I know homosexuality is a sin, i don't want to be a lesbian anymore but i also don't want to like guys because i feel they are not for me. I don't want to, but God wants me to like guys, not girls, so i should stop checking out girls and thinking about being in a relationship with them.
Please help me, how can I do it? It's so hard to me, it's a really hard decision.
Thanks.