Please don't get mad or laugh at me because this is serious and I feel like garbage about this. So in my religion, it's said that Jesus is the good guy and God is the good person as well. However, I started having doubts that Jesus is who he says he is. I started having doubts that Jesus is the Messiah and that he is God in the flesh. It's just doubts that are calling Jesus Satan and calling the Holy Spirit evil. I don't want to believe these thoughts at all. Yes, I am not looking to leave the faith but I am looking to change some weird and abnormal doubts that I have in my head. Where can I start?
Can relate. Oft buffeted with this too, usually I pray, consider the consequences, consider the promises and consider the devil.
1. You will not defeat this without God. Pray. He breathes life into you every morning, He'll do much the same to your spirit. You
need to pray to Him about this. While He knows that you're under attack, you also know that you must lay your burdens down by His feet because He cares for you (and prayer is the best way to make that clear to yourself.)
2. Consider God's promises. Both those stated by God the Father and God the Son (for they are One.) Old Testament or New, they are inseparable and, after you have reviewed the context for whether it's a promise directed at
you (John 17:20-23), a promise directed at the text's audience (Ezekiel 33:10-11) or a promise of God's character (Exodus 34:6-7). Understand that God does not change. The God who wrote all these promises is the exact same God you pray to. Hold them up to them whenever you go in prayer, reminding God that He said He will do these things.
3. Consider the devil. The Adversary. The Evil One. The Accuser of the Brethren. A murderer from the very beginning. He'd love to see you drowned in sin and doubt; doubting the very God who controls every atom in your body. He'd love to see you pulled away from Jesus: He who saves His people from their sins. (Matthew 1:21) He'd love to see you thrown to the ground like that little boy who came to Christ. (Mark 9:14-29) Read or listen to John Bunyan's biography,
Grace Abounding to the Chief of Sinners. You will likely find many stories similar to your own.
This is all I have. Don't forget:
"All that the Father gives Me will come to Me, and the one who comes to Me I will by no means cast out." John 6:37
"However, for this reason I obtained mercy, that in me first Jesus Christ might show all longsuffering, as a pattern to those who are going to believe on Him for everlasting life." 1 Timothy 1:16
"And he arose and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion, and ran and embraced him and kissed him." Luke 15:20