- Feb 11, 2018
- 13
- 11
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- Country
- Canada
- Faith
- Pentecostal
- Marital Status
- Single
How can I be convinced that God's way of living is better then my way of living. As mentioned I have fallen away I do struggle with spiritual amnesia and am having to relearn everything about God, Jesus, His death and sin all over again. I have recently returned to church albeit not consistently and while receiving counsel from my Pastor he has stated I need to seek out Jesus, repentant and follow Jesus, so on so forth however I dont quite get the importance of this nor am I convinced that Gods way is the way to live. I know I wasn't complete nor content with God when in a relationship with Him, I often felt like it was a one sided relationship, like I was doing all the work in maintaining that said relationship with God and was only acknowledged by God when I'd done something wrong. It was like God had big expectations of me and I had to become dependant on myself to handle life situations etc. While God remained on the sidelines occasionally looking on but more or less looking past me. So very uninvolved. I have struggled all my life with a distorted image of God however I did give Him my all at one time So how can I be convinced living for God is better then living without God when I tried this before and dont understand why my Pastor thinks having God and a relationship with Jesus is what I need in order to change my way of living when if it didn't work before why would it now