The breaking point it seemed was when I asked him for money to help a friend in need. I detailed what happened in my first thread here. He did agree to go to marriage counseling and we did go to a Christian counselor who is also a psychologist. We delved into why he felt the way he felt and it turns out he was feeling very resentful towards Christian expectations. His parents are Chinese Christians who were very poor and practiced a very strict interpretation of evangelical Christianity. So now that he is an adult he is extremely bitter over some of the things he missed out on due to his strict upbringing. I guess when I asked him to put off a purchase to free up some money to help a friend the dam just burst and he realized that everything he was doing was out of sheer habit and that he wasn't going to do it anymore. It really is a shame because before his break every one in the church loved him.
Ah, I think I better understand then.
I don't like to come on these boards and publicly criticize this denomination or that, because I know each one has good and sincere people in them, and they generally all have pieces (quite large pieces, usually) of the truth.
But I've seen this kind of thing happen too. And I was raised evangelical - at least the religious connection I had. My core family was not practicing, but I myself was seeking since a very young age, and my great-grandmother was very devout.
There can sometimes be a disconnect, and it seems to come from the things where the more modern denominations diverge from the earliest Church. Worst seems to be the ideas of "thou shalt not's" and WHY we don't do evil things, particularly if a person never sees past the threat of "going to hell" by way of punishment if we make God unhappy with us. Parents who convey those expectations as THE CORE of their faith seem to cause this sort of rebellion frequently in their children.
I don't mean to speak just clinically either. My father did not raise me very much, but he was a devout Pentecostal, and one of my sisters especially went far in that direction and was murdered, so it really touches my heart.
And it sounds to me - forgive me - that your husband is at risk of not even being a believer at all, but simply lived under rules for a time, which ... Lord have mercy ... can be very damaging.
I am not sure what to tell you. It's probably not good for him to go to Church right now. And he probably never needs to be reminded with the image of God he was taught growing up (I'm guessing here) because it probably was a very warped image of the True God, and not one he can believe in or be faithful to.
I wish there was a way to convey to him, in a nutshell, how the early Church viewed God, man, and salvation.
Rather than sin being breaking God's law (although to break God's law IS a sin), and an angry God out to execute judgement and bent on punishing someone though suffering ....
If that is how he sees it ...
God rather created man and all of creation in love and desired it to be in communion with Him and good for us. Sin is more like a disease, a cancer, that was introduced in and spread to all people and made all of creation infected. We are born innocent, into this infected environment, and we all become infected to some degree. God wants ALL people and all creation with them healed of the sickness, and is doing everything necessary to bring that about. But He won't force anyone to accept it, because He respects our will. In the end, the suffering and torment of any persons who refuse to be cured will be the suffering of their own ever-growing infection, not the punishment of God. God will love them anyway (though the ones that truly still hate Him will be tormented by that too, being so warped by their desire to sin). THIS is the original Gospel. Yes, Christ God became man, was crucified, and rose from the dead, but it was not because God had to see someone suffer. His death WAS a sacrifice to pay for our sins (when did God ever demand the animal sacrifices in the OT be tortured?). But more importantly, God desires we live forever, and He created us with that potential, but because we separated ourselves from Him willingly, and He is the source of life, we all entered under the curse of death. That is what God desires to save us from. God Himself, dying, destroyed death, because He is life. Through His death and resurrection, death is defeated and we can (and will) be resurrected.
That is the understanding of the early Christians. That is what the martyrs of the early centuries were holding onto.
I understand the rejection of God by those who see only the punitive, angry, old man in the sky watching us like bugs under a microscope, just waiting for a chance to be justified in squashing us. And that's the view some come away with. It's terribly damaging, and to be honest, its blasphemous as well. Anyone who sees God in that way and still "loves Him" is doing so under a kind of warped psychological phenomenon that also causes some people to love captors or tormentors, usually because they see them as the source of supplying needs.
Anyway.
Forgive me please if any of this sounds harsh. I do have strong feelings about it, because I've seen it shipwreck whatever faith some people might have. It's more logical to disbelieve God exists than to believe in the angry, punishing one, if that is the view one learns.
We hope that God will have mercy on such people, because they do not reject HIM, they reject a charicature of Him, and have perhaps never heard the real Gospel.
Those who do not know Him, but have love, kindness, truth, and such working in them, do so by the working of God's grace. I am NOT saying "works save us" but I am saying true goodness comes from God, so while they may not know Him, He works in some small way in them. This is no statement whatsoever on their eternal judgement - it is not my place to comment on that for any person, as judgement belongs to God and God alone. But rather than a vengeful judge, He is a loving one, that is seeking to draw people and heal them, rather than looking for excuses to burn them.
Anything else I might say is probably redundant. You and your husband have my prayers.