- Nov 7, 2018
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Hi everyone,
I am in a lot of excrutiating pain. I was injured at a dentist practice two weeks ago. I went to another dentist for a second opinion, because would you go back to the first dentist who messed you up? Not me. But maybe I should have, because no way he could have been worse than this second dentist. This dentist was Satan himself. He did not like me from the start, he really didn't try to hide it. I have a few guesses as to why, but really not sure. All I know is, he knew why I was there, he knew I was in awful pain, looking for help, a look over, and he was very curt with me from the start. Then that's when it happened, he started digging into every place that hurt so very hard, SO VERY HARD for quite a long time. I was screaming in agony. At the end he said "Welp, I don't know what's wrong. You got to go to another doc". His eyes were as cold as ice and his attitude was so flippant. I let out the hugest cry. I said "why did you just do that to me? Why did you just put me through all of that agony? From what you did, I'm probably going to the ER tonight and not to mention whatever damage was there before, is probably going to be much worse and irriversable". He just laughed and left the room. I went to the front desk to pay, he was up there, I was crying so hard. Then he left the reception area so I could pay. And yes, it has been much, much worse. MUCH WORSE. I am seriously traumatized. I feel assaulted. Not only has my life changed by the inital dental injury because I am in serious excrutiating pain with that non stop, but now I have these non stop images of the second dentist doing what he did. I was assaulted by this man. I have severe PTSD from this second densit. I am trying not to concentrate on that. I have so many other things to face and concentrate on now, going to specialist and all kinds of things of having to deal with debiltating nerve pain injury, but I cannot get what he did to me out of my head. It just keeps replaying and replaying and replaying. I know it was purposeful. He was discrimintory against me for some reason, I felt that in my gut and no, it wasn't about the color of my skin as we were both the same race. I mean, you all get what I mean, you can tell when someone is a jerk. It doesn't take a genius to figure out what kind of attitude you are getting and when someone doesn't like you. I am also so mad at myself that I allowed him to do that to me without me telling him to stop. I blame myself so much for not stopping it. It was torture and hurt so much and it was useless what he was doing. I knew that and didn't stop him. I am sobbing right now. At least the first dentist, I can chalk it up to him being an idiot. But I need Christian council. This message doesn't even begin to describe how I feel. The words traumatize doesn't even begin to describe it and of course I am wondering why Jesus let this happen. Am I that bad of a person?
I am in a lot of excrutiating pain. I was injured at a dentist practice two weeks ago. I went to another dentist for a second opinion, because would you go back to the first dentist who messed you up? Not me. But maybe I should have, because no way he could have been worse than this second dentist. This dentist was Satan himself. He did not like me from the start, he really didn't try to hide it. I have a few guesses as to why, but really not sure. All I know is, he knew why I was there, he knew I was in awful pain, looking for help, a look over, and he was very curt with me from the start. Then that's when it happened, he started digging into every place that hurt so very hard, SO VERY HARD for quite a long time. I was screaming in agony. At the end he said "Welp, I don't know what's wrong. You got to go to another doc". His eyes were as cold as ice and his attitude was so flippant. I let out the hugest cry. I said "why did you just do that to me? Why did you just put me through all of that agony? From what you did, I'm probably going to the ER tonight and not to mention whatever damage was there before, is probably going to be much worse and irriversable". He just laughed and left the room. I went to the front desk to pay, he was up there, I was crying so hard. Then he left the reception area so I could pay. And yes, it has been much, much worse. MUCH WORSE. I am seriously traumatized. I feel assaulted. Not only has my life changed by the inital dental injury because I am in serious excrutiating pain with that non stop, but now I have these non stop images of the second dentist doing what he did. I was assaulted by this man. I have severe PTSD from this second densit. I am trying not to concentrate on that. I have so many other things to face and concentrate on now, going to specialist and all kinds of things of having to deal with debiltating nerve pain injury, but I cannot get what he did to me out of my head. It just keeps replaying and replaying and replaying. I know it was purposeful. He was discrimintory against me for some reason, I felt that in my gut and no, it wasn't about the color of my skin as we were both the same race. I mean, you all get what I mean, you can tell when someone is a jerk. It doesn't take a genius to figure out what kind of attitude you are getting and when someone doesn't like you. I am also so mad at myself that I allowed him to do that to me without me telling him to stop. I blame myself so much for not stopping it. It was torture and hurt so much and it was useless what he was doing. I knew that and didn't stop him. I am sobbing right now. At least the first dentist, I can chalk it up to him being an idiot. But I need Christian council. This message doesn't even begin to describe how I feel. The words traumatize doesn't even begin to describe it and of course I am wondering why Jesus let this happen. Am I that bad of a person?
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