- Jul 29, 2017
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Ok. So brothers and sisters, you already know my story.
One thing more was revealed to me though, after countless times of prayer.
A memory came flashing back. Sometime I decided to forget for so many years.
When I was a child, I used to visit the parsonage and would sometimes find kids there, or the pastor's children. Sometimes I just wanted to sneek in for curiosity's sake.
One time, I did go inside the parsonage. No one else was there. Not even the pastor. This was one Sunday afternoon. No one was there, EXCEPT for one of the elders of the church.
He motioned for me to approach him. I really didn't know why, but as a child, I just obeyed what he said. And he pulled me to him and he began kissing me in the lips, passionately. I was so shocked that I was motionless; he pulled my body to him.
Then, HE realized what he was doing, and he let go of me. And he left.
I was so shocked and so confused.
But after that, I decided to forget it. I chose to think that it was nothing. Really. It was just a kiss in the lips.
So my question is: Did this in any way affect why I struggled with homosexual desires? What the elder did to me - did this constitute child molestation?
When this was revealed to me recently, I decided to forgive the man, even if I don't know the effects of what he did to me honestly.
Please help me and tell me your take on this. Thank you.
One thing more was revealed to me though, after countless times of prayer.
A memory came flashing back. Sometime I decided to forget for so many years.
When I was a child, I used to visit the parsonage and would sometimes find kids there, or the pastor's children. Sometimes I just wanted to sneek in for curiosity's sake.
One time, I did go inside the parsonage. No one else was there. Not even the pastor. This was one Sunday afternoon. No one was there, EXCEPT for one of the elders of the church.
He motioned for me to approach him. I really didn't know why, but as a child, I just obeyed what he said. And he pulled me to him and he began kissing me in the lips, passionately. I was so shocked that I was motionless; he pulled my body to him.
Then, HE realized what he was doing, and he let go of me. And he left.
I was so shocked and so confused.
But after that, I decided to forget it. I chose to think that it was nothing. Really. It was just a kiss in the lips.
So my question is: Did this in any way affect why I struggled with homosexual desires? What the elder did to me - did this constitute child molestation?
When this was revealed to me recently, I decided to forgive the man, even if I don't know the effects of what he did to me honestly.
Please help me and tell me your take on this. Thank you.