So I've been going to church ever since I moved down to south Florida all the way back in 2018. I met a girl (I'll call her "Kaitlyn" but it's not her real name) at this small church who I always thought was somewhat pretty. Although I don't think I was ever attracted to her at any point. She was also the only girl in the church who is around my age (I think she's the same age as I am but I'm just not 100% sure). Now because of the pandemic, the church I've been going to for the past few years has been closed for several months. So it's been a long while since I've seen her and spoken to her in person. It wasn't until a little over a month ago that I decided to join my church's AY (Adventist Youth) meeting on Zoom. During AY, our instructor told us to guess a number between 1 and 6. I guessed 3 and as it turned out, so did she. So our instructor told us all who attended to get the numbers of those who guessed the same number as us and call or text them during the week to see how they are doing. So I texted her during the week and we surprisingly had a great conversation. This is when I began to develop feelings for her. So for almost a month now we have been texting each other and I would always get excited when she would respond to my texts.
But the thing is, there was this other girl who I had a crush on back in middle school before I met Kaitlyn. Her name was Brooklyn and even after all these years I have not been able to get over her. I never really knew why. I would also think about her almost every single day. So I have been praying to God to help me to move on from her completely but I would still not be able to for some reason. It wasn't until a few nights ago that I prayed to God again to help me to get over Brooklyn. So when I went to bed that night I had a dream about Kaitlyn and me spending time together (I think were we just good friends in the dream and not relationship partners). And ever since I had this dream it has been hard for me to not think about Kaitlyn during the day to the point where I think I may have actually gotten over Brooklyn.
I've been thinking about Kaitlyn a lot lately. Probably more than I should. Like excessively! And if I ever get the chance to date her I certainly would but I don't want her to be an idol in my life. I'd also like to mention that I've never been in a relationship before and I don't think I'm ready to be in one right now. I believe God thinks the same. So I want to take things slow when it comes to this growing friendship that I have with Kaitlyn and maybe someday we'll become something more, God's will. What do you guys think of this?
But the thing is, there was this other girl who I had a crush on back in middle school before I met Kaitlyn. Her name was Brooklyn and even after all these years I have not been able to get over her. I never really knew why. I would also think about her almost every single day. So I have been praying to God to help me to move on from her completely but I would still not be able to for some reason. It wasn't until a few nights ago that I prayed to God again to help me to get over Brooklyn. So when I went to bed that night I had a dream about Kaitlyn and me spending time together (I think were we just good friends in the dream and not relationship partners). And ever since I had this dream it has been hard for me to not think about Kaitlyn during the day to the point where I think I may have actually gotten over Brooklyn.
I've been thinking about Kaitlyn a lot lately. Probably more than I should. Like excessively! And if I ever get the chance to date her I certainly would but I don't want her to be an idol in my life. I'd also like to mention that I've never been in a relationship before and I don't think I'm ready to be in one right now. I believe God thinks the same. So I want to take things slow when it comes to this growing friendship that I have with Kaitlyn and maybe someday we'll become something more, God's will. What do you guys think of this?