- Dec 9, 2018
- 6
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- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Messianic
- Marital Status
- Separated
- Politics
- US-Constitution
Hello everyone, my name is John and I'm 33. I made an account here hoping to find some friends to talk to, because it really helps with depression.
I was married (common law and religious ceremony) for 5 years. I want to say my marriage troubles started in 2017 , but that isn't entirely true. I sort of knew what kind of person my wife was, but I ignored it and hoped she would simply mature and seek God. In 2017, she wanted to leave me, but I had become suicidal and she decided to stay with me on account of that. She stayed with me an additional year.
However, a couple months ago, my wife had started using illegal substances, and I tried to correct her. That backfired and she's now essentially fornicating with the man who also supplies her with drugs. It's a coworker of her's at her job. She's started sleeping over there now, and I haven't seen her in about 3 days. By the way, her reasoning for breaking up with me is because she's "bored". I know I'm not perfect, but I love her dearly, and I've never done anything intentionally harmful to her. We never really even fought much, and we often did enjoy doing things together. Because of that, I'm having a hard time wrapping my mind around her reasoning. It just seems so petty.
She says the most important thing in life is "having fun". I told her she is wrong, and that the most important thing in the physical is family. Her response was basically, "to each their own." These days, I can't even talk to her anymore. She just tells me to mind my own business. Maybe the most amazing part is that she was raised a Christian (including following the commandments), but it just didn't seem to stick with her. I don't really know why.
I'm not sure why I'm alive right now. I had my finger on the trigger, but I couldn't do it. I'm just not sure why. I'm a very loyal person, and it was my goal to have just one marriage in life, because I didn't want to repeat the mistakes of my parents (they've both been through many marriages). I think I'm past the hard part of my breakup now, but I still get depressed easily because I don't have any friends in real life. My wife was my one real friend. I feel very alone.
I'm hoping to make some friends here, and if possible locally in the Denver area, because I really want to move forward with my life.
I was married (common law and religious ceremony) for 5 years. I want to say my marriage troubles started in 2017 , but that isn't entirely true. I sort of knew what kind of person my wife was, but I ignored it and hoped she would simply mature and seek God. In 2017, she wanted to leave me, but I had become suicidal and she decided to stay with me on account of that. She stayed with me an additional year.
However, a couple months ago, my wife had started using illegal substances, and I tried to correct her. That backfired and she's now essentially fornicating with the man who also supplies her with drugs. It's a coworker of her's at her job. She's started sleeping over there now, and I haven't seen her in about 3 days. By the way, her reasoning for breaking up with me is because she's "bored". I know I'm not perfect, but I love her dearly, and I've never done anything intentionally harmful to her. We never really even fought much, and we often did enjoy doing things together. Because of that, I'm having a hard time wrapping my mind around her reasoning. It just seems so petty.
She says the most important thing in life is "having fun". I told her she is wrong, and that the most important thing in the physical is family. Her response was basically, "to each their own." These days, I can't even talk to her anymore. She just tells me to mind my own business. Maybe the most amazing part is that she was raised a Christian (including following the commandments), but it just didn't seem to stick with her. I don't really know why.
I'm not sure why I'm alive right now. I had my finger on the trigger, but I couldn't do it. I'm just not sure why. I'm a very loyal person, and it was my goal to have just one marriage in life, because I didn't want to repeat the mistakes of my parents (they've both been through many marriages). I think I'm past the hard part of my breakup now, but I still get depressed easily because I don't have any friends in real life. My wife was my one real friend. I feel very alone.
I'm hoping to make some friends here, and if possible locally in the Denver area, because I really want to move forward with my life.