Hello everyone,
This post may very well be in the wrong place and if it is, I apologise. I've come here for help as I am very lost and feel quite defeated. I will try to keep this as short as possible and thank you for reading.
I have been married to a wonderful, kind, and beautiful woman for 7 years. She had been married before and was abused and neglected severely. She grew up in a very dysfunctional family where her only memories of her parents together are tainted by hate and fighting before an inevitable separation. She wasn't instructed in really any aspect of her life or development and went on to lose her virginity at age 14 to her first boyfriend. That went on to become a 7 year relationship based on neglect and control and emotional abuse. She then went on to several more relationships where sex was offered immediately and she never found love or connection but was desperately trying to.
She allowed men to mistreat her and neglect her and through talking to her, I've learned that until we met, she never had a feeling of worth. She doesn't seem to value her body or herself and it always led to this feeling of disconnect with me or even disinterest in me. Before learning these things I just assumed it was something I was doing but it's now easy to see that she is giving me everything she can.
We've made much progress in our lives together but there is still this deep pain and regret and shame in her and in the way she views herself and I as an individual and flawed and likely unqualified man do not know how to cement in her , her intrinsic value as a woman, or as a new creation in Christ. She knows her value to God but doesn't seem able to comprehend her value to herself.
Does anyone know of any books, videos, workshops, lessons, etc. That can help her learn her value and self dignity as she would've ideally been taught by a loving and intentional mother? I want to see her shine and thrive. I treat her well but I want her to have standards for herself that would never tolerate less and to never settle for less ever again. I want her to connect to herself and what it means to me to have her in my life and what it means to me that she shares her body with me. I see her as a blessing and someone to be cherished and she sees herself as anything but that. It feels like in order for us to truly be ONE , we must defeat this demon that haunts her.
I'm sure I left out a whole lot of info but hopefully this gets the general idea out. Thank you again so much for listening and any input that may come my way. It is so appreciated!
This post may very well be in the wrong place and if it is, I apologise. I've come here for help as I am very lost and feel quite defeated. I will try to keep this as short as possible and thank you for reading.
I have been married to a wonderful, kind, and beautiful woman for 7 years. She had been married before and was abused and neglected severely. She grew up in a very dysfunctional family where her only memories of her parents together are tainted by hate and fighting before an inevitable separation. She wasn't instructed in really any aspect of her life or development and went on to lose her virginity at age 14 to her first boyfriend. That went on to become a 7 year relationship based on neglect and control and emotional abuse. She then went on to several more relationships where sex was offered immediately and she never found love or connection but was desperately trying to.
She allowed men to mistreat her and neglect her and through talking to her, I've learned that until we met, she never had a feeling of worth. She doesn't seem to value her body or herself and it always led to this feeling of disconnect with me or even disinterest in me. Before learning these things I just assumed it was something I was doing but it's now easy to see that she is giving me everything she can.
We've made much progress in our lives together but there is still this deep pain and regret and shame in her and in the way she views herself and I as an individual and flawed and likely unqualified man do not know how to cement in her , her intrinsic value as a woman, or as a new creation in Christ. She knows her value to God but doesn't seem able to comprehend her value to herself.
Does anyone know of any books, videos, workshops, lessons, etc. That can help her learn her value and self dignity as she would've ideally been taught by a loving and intentional mother? I want to see her shine and thrive. I treat her well but I want her to have standards for herself that would never tolerate less and to never settle for less ever again. I want her to connect to herself and what it means to me to have her in my life and what it means to me that she shares her body with me. I see her as a blessing and someone to be cherished and she sees herself as anything but that. It feels like in order for us to truly be ONE , we must defeat this demon that haunts her.
I'm sure I left out a whole lot of info but hopefully this gets the general idea out. Thank you again so much for listening and any input that may come my way. It is so appreciated!